This weekend

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it went amazing.

just being next to that steve meant the world to me. we kissed a LOT and cuddled and stuff.we fooled around a lot too. lol.

im absolutely falling for him. hard.

im completely heart sick now tho. i couldnt eat when i was out there, and now im forcing myself to eat and i feel so sick. i miss him so much. ive been teary eyed all day. i just dont know what to do. my heart is breaking here. and i have to wait another month to see him. and then im so afraid of what will happen in the fall. *cries* i try not to think about it. but im physically in pain here.

Awww I'm sorry hun that you are hurting! But at least you found out how you truly feel about him... though I know that's no comfort now.

Best advice I can give it take it a day at a time, and remember to breath.. and yes EAT! hehe.

yeah i was talking to mom about it. and she asked me what was wrong. i said i was stomach sick and weak and spaced out. and she said "you're heartsick aren't you?" and i almost cried =(

im slowly getting my appetite back. i have stomach cramps tho. im still sorta on my period, and its not helping at all right now. *sigh*

Hugs

I would have asked .. but.. I already knew

Hey Ashley,Just to show you that things can work... my better half is from New Zealand (incidently the most amazing country I have ever been to) and I'm from the UK, we've been dating for like 3 years now, and we manage it... it'll be like 5 months ish now until I get to see her again, as long as you can talk, then things will progress how they're meant to... actually, it's my belief that it works better to get the talking part of the relationship, cuz it will bring you so much closer in real life whenever you're together and you will both appreciate the things that you share that much more... believe me, I know that from experience, every day that Jenna and I are together, I prize with every fibre of my being, and the days we are apart hurt like someone sliding hot rocks through my hopes and dreams, but, that's okay too, because it lets me see clearly just what it is I have to look forward to Just look at the positives, the negatives are there, and probably many to long distance, but, if you can make the positives work, as The Beatles (I hate myself for using this lame ass quote, cuz I stil don't like them btw, so, feel honoured lol) so aptly pointed out all that time ago: "All you need is love" Treasure your times together and share your memories with each other as often as you can and create new ones, even online you can create new ones anyway, hope you feel better soon, and just enjoy yourself... after all, we only get one shot at life I'm glad you had a good weekend too, I did right up until Sunday night when I had to get on my lame ass flight and go back to the UK, but that too is okay, because being apart simply starts the countdown to being back together again and it's really not to long Anyway, I've noticed that I'm rambling, so, just enjoy yourself eh live your life your way and by your own rules, and you can't go wrong laters

wow thanks so much for that post. put a smile on my face this morning. and that means a lot to me. yeah we talk on msn every day. but he seems like a bit of a closed box. i ask him what hes thinking and what he wants to talk about and we talk for a few minutes and it goes quiet again. can anyone help me here? id love for him to completely open up to me. when i wake up in the morning, the first thing i think about is him. i smile because we get along so great. but my heart breaks when i cant kiss him good morning =(

I don't think there's any real hard and fast rule to what you talk about, and I know some people are more closed off than others when it comes to the verbal, or, if you're typing, then the better typist usually does the most talking (as I'm sure you notice by my long posts, I type at pretty much 100wpm so I do a lot of talking in txt lol) but, when we talk, it's usually about what we've done in the day, what we're up to, how the day's gone, how much we can't wait to be back together, what we're gonna do when we're together etc etc... it's just good to talk, but then, I'm a natural talker, so maybe that's just me, but we usually talk for more than a coupla hours everyday :$ heh hehAnyway, good luck with things... I know what you mean about not being able to kiss the person you love though, we're pretty much literally at opposite ends of the world, literally the longest time gap as well, but as the saying goes: absence makes the heart grow fonder... every second I'm away from my gf, my heart aches for her, but I console myself by counting down the time until I get to see her again

i get what your saying totally. steve is a write tho. lol he write a LOT. so i mean, why is it so hard for him to open up to me? and yeah my heart aches for him. its about 27 until i can see him again. and i really cant wait to feel his arms around me. god i love him.