Right now am in my computer chair pulling my hair out and overstressing,this might be a little long so bear with me while i get to the point.From the moment i signed in i have opened up to you guys in ways i never thought possible and right now i really need your help. I am back to the point where am going over the edge and might just go over. Ok so heres the thing.You guys know that i have not been on good terms with my boyfriend and lately i have been contemplating on leaving his trifling ass.Earlier today i broke my vow of commitment and i slept with my ex only to realise how much i missed him and still loved him,but i made it clear to him that we would not be getting back together because of austin and also because of his dishonesty where i was concerned.Are you guys following me where am going right now?Ok back to my story.i don
t know what to do or what i should say to austin(my boyfriend) about marron(my ex boyfriend).I want to tell him but a part of me dreads it and a part of me is glad that i did what i did.The twist to this is though i realised how much i missed my ex i felt nothing throughout the entire lovemaking,i faked my orgasm and my mind was on austin the entire time. What is that? My ex used to have the power to bring me alive and set a fire in my soul but alas nothing happened today when i went to him for comfort,the sex was cold and unfeeling and in the end i hated myself for it.I start school in a couple weeks and they are taking my daughter away from me,am overstressed and miserable and constantly losing weight,i cant remember a time in my life as to when i was so miserable as i am now.The bottom line is i don
t know what to do or who to turn to and for some reason i am scared. I need help.I hope that you understood my coherant babbling. I am begging for any advice little as it may be so that i can try to live for one more day not only for me but for my daughter.Thank you in advance.
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I don`t know what to do.
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I can
t say I haven
t but believe you me I can be very hardheaded and stubborn when it comes to relationships.Hosanna is my primary concern but that is not going to stop them from taking her from me. They are taking her away because they think that when i start studying in september i won`t be a good mother.(by they i mean my parents) she is being sent to santo domingo to leave with my aunt and uncle. -
My feeling is that perhaps you need some time away from both of them to work things out without distraction. It may be that neither of them are right for you.
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your right that`s why come october when i go on break am taking my ass to trinidad and tobago me,myself and i
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I'd say if you can't be faithful to your man, then leave him, and don't tell him you cheated. If anything you shouldn't be running the risk of spreading a disease (You don't know what your ex might have). You don't need it, and your bf doesn't deserve that kind of backstabbing no matter how dissatisfied you are with him.Secondly, if they are taking your kid away, I don't think a vacation is the best way to prove "Hey I'm a responsible parent."Quit focusing on a man and start focusing how to get your life together to provide a stable environment for you and your daughter. That's what really matters.P.S. If you decide to stick with your man, you at least need to tell him what you did and you both need to get tested.
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Did i say that the sex was unprotected,no i didn
t. I already have a child i don
t want more plus i don`t want to catch anything.They took her away already like i said i start school next week,thanku -
What the hell are you talking about? Rune didn't say anything judgemental.
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If I did come across as judgmental I apologize. It certainly wasn't intentional but I contrary to what most people say without a little time to think it out I'm not that great with words and I do indeed have a tendency to come off as harsh and threatening. Again I apologize and I'm working on it.
I was only advising against some of the things she was wanting to do and was also suggesting that she get tested if she were having sex. A condom is still not a guarantee of the nontransference of STD's. And regardless she has cheated, which I try to take in stride but I genuinely do have a problem with anyone who tries to justify such actions. Regardless, I was only giving courses of actions, and I apologize if I came across as harsh.
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Sorry, it's just I didn't see what you were talking about.