I am not sure that I realized what was happening when it did. I spent the better part of 2 full years, drunk. Yes. Everyday, all day sometimes. No work, nothing getting done, except drinking... I am trying to clean up, and while I just can't quit cold turkey have weened myself down to less than a 6 pack per day. This is down from 15-20 beers a day. In the past 2 years, I went from 160 lbs to 255 lbs. I lost friends, and have family that doesn't look at me the same. There is a bigger, more permanent side effect that I didn't count on.
I lost my brain.
I came back here, and logged in, and checked on some of my previous posts. Some of my earlier posts were very thoughtful, and I honestly could not believe that I wrote them. I can't do it anymore. I just wanted to say this to anyone who thinks that drinking isn't that harmful.
I probably have liver disease, I know I have brain damage, and I am extremely overweight and out of shape. For anyone who is drinking daily, even if not as heavily I was, please step back and look at what you are doing.
You could loose more than you bargained for.
It's not worth it. Find a new addiction, be it chewing bubble gum, sucking on lollipops, reading, or even masterbation. Just don't mess with alcohol.