ive been like really sad lately. like at school i'm able to hide it and act relatively normal, but it's like this weird anxious feeling like something is itching in my chest and shoulders and then i get like a really desperate feeling like i need to drink something, or take something so i can be calm. i've been crying a lot everyday. and when i'm not at school and after a while of faking it with my parents i get really irritable and actually hurt their feelings with the way i act. after a while i just want to be alone in my room and listen to music and just be sad. is this going to last forever or is it just a phase? and if i do ever feel better how do i make it constant because i've been through this before but not so heavily and it just comes back.
Everything feels wrong
a few months back my parents noticed my grades were bad and i wasn't doing anything but moping around and being bitchy, so they took me to my doctor and as soon as we mentioned the school thing she started giving me a bunch of ADD stuff (tests and referals) and my parents realllyyyyy didn't like it, so i don't think they'd be up for that again. is there anything i can do for myself? like how could i find out what my problem is exactly?
i think the plan was to get reffered to a therapist through my doctor but she was only going to refer me for possible ADD, so we never followed up.
but anyways, it's ok thank your for your advice.
a school councilor..? maybe. He /she may can tell your parents a doctor to try at a clinic that deals with depression, like an mental health clinic.
mental health clinic isn't liek a mental ill instution liek witfild. it;s just a name of a clinic thathas therpists office that speciallize in issues like depression, abuse, anger, rape... and such. i don't knwo if you have to have a reffreal from a doctor tho (i had a reffral) but you might can just walk in... i don't know.