I Think She Knows

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I'm referring to the hot girl at work. My gut is telling me that she knows that I like her for more than a friend. But to update you all, I found her alternate Facebook page where I found out she is seeing someone. Under her hobbies she lists being a good boyfirend. I've tried recently to find the page again, but I can't...mysterious. I try to sit next to her and talk to her. Last week she said, jokingly I thought, that I should stay later at work. I just laughed and said I'd die, because my goal is to go to work, do what I'm supposed to do and go home as soon as possible.I've even written poems about her. She's missed this week of work because of the hurricane down here, but next week I'll see here twice a week. Well it's one reason to get excited about work, and then there's getting paid. She's sooooo cute. I don't have anyone else to tell so thanks for reading.

Stalking...who's stalking?I can't go to a lesbian hang out, I'd die if someone I knew saw me. I can't function in one on one conversation anyway, at least not at first.Don't get my hopes up, I'm trying to stay close to reality.I don't know what to do. I'm a coward.

Well technically it wasn't stalking. A guy we worked with posted some pictures of his Halloween party and I notice in a shot. She was tagged in the photo under a different name and when I clicked the link there a profile came up, but I couldn't view it. Whenever I type in the name her setting are different, sometimes I can view it and sometimes I can't, soo.... IT didn't start off as stalking.
I'm sure there is such a place, but I couldn't ask her. I'm not 100% sure this is something I want out in the open. I don't want people to treat me differently.

No I'd take your advice, it's good, but I'm just too scared. It's hard to explain.

No I have not, I usually feel like I'm bothering them. I don't have a car. I guess my thought is 'Who'd want to go anywhere with me?'.Now this is something I can work with. Next month is my birthday (I'll be 24 wooooo!) and I could invite everyone from work, including her. Hopefully she'll come.She does seem to like looking at my art whenever I bring anything in to work. I think she's a bit of an artist herself. If we're alone for a while, I could fine something out. Usually there's an audience so, I'm really nervous.

i know where you are coming from i,ve hung out with a gril i like i couldnt make a move till i saw someone else coming on to her and suddnly i coul,nt help it i asked her to a drive in and she said yes i just had to get enough nevre to do it and seeing another guy that lit a fire so DO IT !!!!!

but this was very long ago and i did get hurt so take it or leave it

I think getting hurt is part of the process. It's like being a trapeze artist: love is dangerous, and every so often you fall and get badly hurt; but if you never did it, you'd never get the thrills.

It's scary....

Yes, very, very true.Something she said today has gotten me wondering. She asked the most random question. She asked me if I like tangerines or oranges. I said I like both and she said she likes oranges. Was this just a normal question and I'm just thinking too hard or was it a metaphor for something? I'm probably just stretching it a bit...maybe a lot.I think she like me back....

It was probably a stretch.I just mesaged her on Facebook, the plan is that it will lead to a more in depth discussion about what I'm really trying to say. Hopefully this plan goes well.

No, lol, I asked her if she likes poetry.

Sometimes, that first step is all it takes... build a friendship first, and take it from there!!My current gf, I actually met over the internet, and we were "friends" first... I knew from day one how she made me feel, cuz she always just gave me this warm fuzzy feeling, but you can't just put that out there right away!!!! The heart wants what the heart wants, what can I say!! Now, I couldn't ever imagine not being with her, but I'll admit... the most scared I've ever been in my life was the day I decided I was going to tell her I felt more for her than just as a friend :$ ... and, I've been mortared in Iraq, shot at, and we had a rocket attack on the flight... so, yeah... I kinda know how scary it can be!!! heh hehIf you don't try, you'll never know, and I for one put myself in a position that I'd rather know an answer than always think what if, and as a result, I'm now with (in my humble opinion) the most beautiful (both in looks and personality) woman I have ever met in my entire life so, I say go for it ... there really is nothing to lose, except for the "what if" question... and losing that is a good thing

Okay, so she finally replied and this is what she said:

"poetry... yea i do somewhat? what about you? but this is such a random subject haha"

and I replied:

"I do like poetry.
It is, it is, but your honest opinion is valued on this subject. So I'm usually hit or miss on this so I thought I'd ask someone. So...say someone sent you a poem would your response be positive or negative?"

Nooooo, I can't send those. I've written at least two that I remember, but they may be too much. I'll look creepy.

Oooh oooh, I'm so exicited. Here's her reply:"positive. i like poems. but my preference for poems is usually sad ones, i dont know why. but i would read poems if i had some. i just never get my hands on any."So I'm assuming this is the green light, right?

Well, a green light for showing her poems.

Yeah....I still feel a little hesitant. I'm going to try though.

Oh, God no.... I can't give then to her, that means I'll have to walk up and look her in the face. The only time I really see her is at work and I don't want to give her anything while everyone is watching. Giving to her does sound a lot better, but I don't have the guts to do that yet. This may be the end to my plan....

You say that she's on your facebook right? well, how about sending them there Or, if you have her e-mail, write them up really neatly, scan them and send them... so much more personal, as long as you can write in a manner befitting anyone not of a profession involving medicine... I'm sure that's not even English, some kind of Elvish maybe? lol ... anyway, I'm distracting myself... try it, write one up And remember, much as we like to help, we also like all the gossip heh heh