to be honest I am embaressed to post this. I dnt know why but I am. This is from my iPhone so sry about spelling errors. I'm not going to commit suicide.
I am obsessed with the girl I first had sex with and she hates me. It's been over a year and a half since we stopped dating and I have had 4 gf and numorous other girls since. She is the only girl that I am interested in sexually and when I'm with other girls I only have about a 50% chance of cumming. It's boring with other girls.
I'm a huge fan of pot but right now for the first time in close to 3 years I do not want it. It no longer the same as it used to be. I was robbed picking up on the same day as one friend was stabbed by someone picking up from him and another busted by an undercover pig. Pot became dirty after this and being high isn't the same.
So what is there to live for when pot and sex are no longer fun? I'm a highschool privaleged middle class white senior in highschool with an easy schedule and I'm depressed and can't figure out why. I feel like an emo fucking bitch. Iv tried video games and reading as forms of escapism and none are working. Any suggestions on getting over the girl, and making sex and pot fun again?
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When sex is boring and drugs nolonger cause escape
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Not to come across as harsh, but you need to face what you're trying to escape from and do something about it instead of trying to run away from it. Sometimes an occasional escape is not a bad thing...more like a change of scenery. But when you feel you always need to escape, you've got to do something about it. Stop trying to sooth the symptoms by escaping and face the desease itself.
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I agree with thor, and I wonder if part of the problem is a lack of purpose in your life. Rather than looking for escapes, what do you want to achieve?
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These guys are right. Meaning and purpose only come with goals and the dedication to achieve them.
I know it sounds like it sucks but really it doesn't. Find yourself something you want and work toward it. Then you won't need escape and your extra curricular activities, be they sex and or flaming up, will be much more pleasing. They won't be an escape then they'll be recreation.
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i have high school during the day and am taking 2 classes at the community college. i work construction on the weekends and work out 4 days a week. i am captain on the schools mock trial team, on a competitive bowling team, and manage 80 people in my city for an environmental organization. none of these things appeal to me. i cruise through school and get As and cruise through college apps. during my free time i have no clue what i do. time just passes with out me noticing, ill finish my hw and fuck around on the internet or what ever and then im going to bed. nothing is fucking fun anymore.the girl im obsessed with is blaming me for ruining her social life. apparently i moved back from switzerland and now she cant hang out with her old group of friends cause i am back in it and her girl friends keep sticking up for me when she bitches about me making me take away her female friends too.she is fucking with my head. today at school a bus was taking people for off campus lunch which we can only do once a quarter and she made the bus driver kick me off for not having a permission slip when 1/2 the people on the bus didnt and it was only me. she came back appoligizing for being bitchy and then came up to the table i was at with my group of friends and told me my pressence annoyed her and why wouldnt i fuck off.she wants my best friend who finds her to be psychotic and wont go for her and she blames her inability to get him on me too. I avoid her and my group of friends follows me and she follows them.i dnt thinkg that she is the main cause of my depression but it is annoying and more so that nothing is fun. since i had sex my life was about pot and sex and now neither are fun. before those were the only 2 that were fun and now neither are. i dnt know what the problem is so i cant confront it. this is most years my favorite time of the year, ski season. id be in high anticipation for the whole of october and everything would be bright looking forward to first snow (once its here im not nearly as big of a fan). and right now its like everything else, i just dnt care. any help?i dnt know what i want to work for. im trying to finish college apps and get into college, i have no clue what i want to study or where i want to go. im applying early decision to Rice U to do engineering undefined but i have no desire to study that. i want to just do a brainless 9-5 which is fucked up cause i am smarter than anyone i know. I had a legit iq test taken cause i was a normal group of a brain study and i was hung over the morning after smoking an 1/8 and space cakes on four hours of sleep and i got a 138. i dnt mean to brag but i feel like i should be trying to do something, but nothing interests me. sex/pot were and now they dnt. iv tried other things but have no desire for those either.