So... for those of you who know me, you know I love to dance. And I've given up on dancing secular and basically hip hop r&b, latino, afro-Brazilian etc. I'm mainly just into contemporary and ballet and occasionally capoeira. But one of my dance teachers has a scouter... I think that's what they are called, who came to New York from Cali and he saw a video of one of our previous dances that we did like... way way back when. And basically he thought it was awesome or whatever. So they're having this promo thingy majigger for Beyonce (don't ask, she's practically immortal here) and they wanted us to perform two of her dances.
Before I was really into her music and I did dances to her songs all the time. But that was WAYYY back when. Like... stone age. I don't do that anymore. But my dance teacher and the people in my group are badgering me and hounding me like a pack of wild wolves. I'm considering doing it but.. I just feel uncomfortable doing it. I don't dance like that anymore, it's just not me. And I tried having a rehearsal with them this weekend and they were like "see you still got it!" but I feel so awkward. It feels wrong. I mean it's fun that's what I liked about it the most but it just makes me feel awkward. I don't know what to do. My sister is urging me but that's because she likes Beyonce. I'm kind of like... ehh... and my mom would probably freak if she found out what I was actually doing but come on I'm almost 18...in 5 months. I don't know I'm so confused. I don't want to disappoint my friends and teacher and dancing for a Beyonce promo sounds pretty darn cool but I don't want to disappoint my mother either or feel like crap if I were to go along with it.
And it's not like Beyonce has bad songs or anything it's just... they picked the two songs I mainly avoided. Like... why THOSE two? You probably wouldn't think it's that bad but for me it's kind of ehh...