I have never had anything that I was good at, never really anything to call my own. Everywhere I look, I see people who have something that they are good at and enjoy doing but I have never had that. I came to flight school and I thought I was doing well, but I had a check ride today and the examiner pretty much questioned how my instructor even put me up for the check ride. He couldn't believe how much I didn't know and I couldn't believe how much I didn't know either. I felt like a complete idiot. Part of it is my instructor's fault because a lot of the things I didn't know he never taught me but there are some things that I should have known and didn't. The biggest thing that bothers me is that I messed up on things that I am normally great at. I wasn't nervous or anything, I just somehow messed up. My last few flights have been amazing and perfect and this check ride was a harsh reality for me. I have been searching for my entire life trying to find something that I can do well and, once again, I thought I had found it but I was wrong. Even one of my brain dead roommates passed his check ride without any problem. I really want this and I am going to amaze the hell out of my next check ride examiner with how much I know and how well I can fly, but what if this happens again? I can't believe I messed up on such simple things. Sorry, I just needed to get this out. I have been in another depression spell lately and things are kind of sucking.
Ask for a new instructor if possible maybe?
I think those who sail through their training usually find life itself gives them a reality check later on. Hardly any of us will be the best in the world at anything, and very few are exceptionally good at anything. If you are exceptionally good at something, you tend to find eventually that it doesn't bring you fame and fortune, and indeed in the end it doesn't matter.
What does matter is that you work at your work and put an honest effort in. You will make mistakes and you will fall over from time to time, but you learn what you can and you pick yourself up and push on. If your job is worth doing, then doing it is worthwhile in itself.
I think I am a pretty reasonably good driver. At any rate I can drive my children to places they need to go, and get them there safely. I am not up to racing standard; I am really pretty ordinary; but that is all that is needed. But I failed my first attempt at a licence, and at first when I did have one I had a lot of minor accidents. That shouldn't stop me from enjoying what I can do now. The things I did do really well at in school and university, and made into my career, it turned out didn't really get me anywhere, but the more ordinary parts of the job gave the most satisfaction.
Guess it happens in everybody's life and I thought I was the only one
Hope you do well next time. Best of luck.
<i> <span style="color: red"> <b>Il faut plus d'amour dans le monde. </b> </span> </i><br /><br />