I have no real desires to do anything, nothing I really like to do no Ideals or dreams for the future.I hate to sound like the glass is half empty but I don't really have much going on.Nothing interests me, like I mean my brother wanted to be a doctor, he never got that far before he joined the army, but he had goals and worked that way for awhile. I don't have anything like that really.I am working on a book, fantasy type like lotr warcraft so on and so forth.But if I can't get it published or people don't like it, that's not going to make me much, And I don't think I have the patients to become an actual writer.I liked to draw in the past, but I can't anymore because I got some problems with my wrists so I can no longer steady a pencil.The only actual skill I seem to have is I can come up for back stories or even characters for something, but I doubt there's allot of work out there for that.As for a normal job like Bag boy or working at burgerking or something I have issues with for several reasons.One where I am I have to get my own car to get to town and get a job. which means 400 dollars every couple a months for insurance plus gas, plus car repairs because my vehicle is in terrible condition(Thanks brother, It's not like I needed that when I turned 16 or anything) So I wouldn't really be getting anywhere. And why get a job if you're in the EXACT same position that you're in already but with less freedoms.plus I'm a bit handicapped (I think is the right word I don't know)Because I have astrophobia bad and not only do I fear weather like high winds (20+) and thunderstorms, but in some cases heavy rain and I either cannot sleep at all, or I stay up until I crash.Which could make me poor at work or dangerous, hard to keep a schedule because I might fall asleep and not even go in to work, or dangerous on the road because of lack of sleep.So I dunno what to do I'm kind of in a rut.
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So yeah, what do I do with my life?
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There probably is work for making characters and back stories, but could you do it to deadline?
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That depends on what kinda of Deadline. And what kind of character they want. and what exactly am I doing with it.
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Have you thought of starting by writing short stories for magazines?
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Not particularly
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Theres always excuses NOT to do something. To be honest it seems like you have to just get over it and step out of your comfort zone. How can you have desires if you aren't active in the community or go to school?
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I have to admit, when I was younger, all I ever wanted was to be a pilot in the RAF... when I was 15, I got glasses, and pretty much just coasted after that, because I didn't have a clue what to do besides :SI do love to fly, and I did get a glider license for a while, and I eventually did join the RAF, just as a tradesman rather than a pilot, so I spent 9 years working in ICT for the RAF, which I've just finished, which means for the first time in 9 years, I have no idea what to do myself again!!I can totally understand how things can get you down sometimes, but you have to find the things that you're better at than other people... heck, there's every chance that you'll end up a writer for something like NBC or someone like that, but you have to strive for your goals... most people in that kind of role get the jobs by proving themselves elsewhere, such as magazines, so it's really a good idea to start writing, and sending your stories off to magazines, it might be disappointing if they don't get published at first, but there's always the next one, and the next one, and the next one...Life is there for the taking, but if you don't have ambition, you have to create that in yourself, or figure out where you want to be... it won't come overnight, but you have to make these decisions, because otherwise you will end up going nowhere really fast and you'll wonder why life passed you by!I'll even use myself as an example... I decided a coupla years ago that I was going to leave the RAF this year, and I have... today in fact!! Because I wanted to try new things, and I wanted to go to NZ, so to that end, I fly next wednesday night!!The world really is yours for the taking, if you can find the motivation to do what you want to do... you might get knocked back, but you'll get there in the end, if it's what you really want I'm a great believer that everything happens for a reason, and yes, I have to admit it pretty much shattered my dreams to find out because I had glasses I couldn't be a pilot in the RAF, but if I had have been a pilot, I wouldn't have the life I have now, so I choose to be grateful for the way things work out I have the most beautiful gf in the whole wide world, and I'm happy to do pretty much any job, as long as it gets me enough money to survive, and live a relatively comfortable life with my lovely lady So, the question you really gotta ask yourself is: "Do I feel lucky?" ... Well, do ya... Punk?**okay, sorry... I like to joke around... and I like Dirty Harry heh heh