I am almost 18 years old! I understand that my mom, dad, and brothers are protective over me but what the heck??? I'm not stupid enough to turn around and sleep with someone... just like... randomly. I've had "premarital sex is wrong" burned into my system. The guy that I am IN LOVE WITH is in Georgia and I can't even speak to him. I am... BEYOND pissed. Like... you have no idea. The farthest I've gone with a guy is a kiss. And not "suck your face off kiss". But a G-rated peck on the lips. I have kept a 97 GPA for 4 years! 4 years! And I realize that I'm not as "enthusiastic" about high school as I used to be. But I'm a senior give me a break. It's not like my grades are slipping. I've been accepted to 3 of my colleges already, still waiting for others but I mean... this sucks. I am so in love with this guy that it scares me sometimes. But his heart is so genuine and so real. He's down to earth and honestly I love everything about him including his many flaws. I feel deprived and it annoys me to no end. My mom is very religious. I love her to pieces. But... dang! Jesus will always be the number one man in my life. But why can't I be allowed to be loved by another man that I can touch, hear, and see. Like... I hear from him what I never hear from anyone else. He actually understands me despite how cliche that may sound. Everything I'm insecure about he loves and in a way it helps me to love myself even more. He's very uplifting when it comes to my spirits. I've never felt about any guy the way I feel about him. And someone told me that I'm using him to take the place of the father that I never had.. .SO WHAT! Why can't he take that place? I'm fine with it. Do I need to chill out and slow down with this guy even though I ONLY talk to him on the phone. Or what... I can't even talk to my mom. She has no idea what's going on with me.