I will apologize in advance for the lengthy post, but helpful advice will be appreciated.
My boyfriend came out to visit me last week. The day he left, I dropped him off to the bus stop, and when I came home I went on my computer. I had a weird gut feeling so I browsed his email. And found an email between him and a girl that really upset me. She sent him photos of herself poledancing because she said she loved the thought of him getting turned on by her. He messaged her back saying she's so fucking sexy and that he's disappointed that she wasn't naked in any of the photos. He asked for nude photos and photos of her body.
I got so fucking upset. I have never cried so hard in all my life. Mom was freaking out. She is sooo mad at Stephen for doing this. I try and calm myself down by saying that he actually didn't sleep with anyone else. But I still consider this a way of cheating. I found out on Sunday. And It's been on my mind ever since. At first he was soooo mad. He told me he doesn't deserve me and all that shit. And I want to try and work past it. But I'm scared.
A few months ago he was flirting with a girl on MSN and I found out too. I was really upset and he said he wasn't going to anymore. But then I find this :frowning:
These are both girls he met online. One through a site called Interpals. It's an online site to find penpals. And this other girl from that site sent him a photo of her clothed ass as a "joke" apparently. I messaged her and asked her WTF is going on. And she apologized, and removed him from her friend list. Stephen also told me that he deleted the girl that sent him the photos of herself poledancing. I'm so hurt though :frowning: I just got accepted into school last week, and got my license. And I was sooo happy. And then this happens :frowning: We had plans to get a place together in September, and now I'm so upset. His attitude was so horrible at first. He did not want to reason at all. All he kept saying was that I can do better. He's so fucking stubborn and arrogant and defensive. and I told him to grow the fuck up and deal with the problem.
Now he's trying to.
In my opinion people deserve chances. I just think this is going to take a while to get over. It upsets me so much thinking about it. I only now just got my appetite back. I went about 3 days without eating a normal meal before last night. I am so hurt, and sad :frowning:
I don't want people bitching at me for trying to give him a chance here. I just want to know what other people would do. We've been dating almost a year! And I love him. And he loves me. He has no explanation for what he did. I mean, other couples go through things that are worse than this, and they can work through it. So do you think there is any hope left for us? I want him working his ass off to get me back. We're still together, but we both know that I could dump him at any minute, and honestly I want him scared shitless. He's scared but I think he's expecting it... And I don't know when I will even see him again. He lives 4 hours away until the fall when we had plans to live together. I had plans to see him next week, but now I'm doubting it, unless he wants to pay my way out there. I feel like taking part of the bus money and buying myself a sexy pair of shoes.
Oh, and mom really hates him for this. And says that he will probably never be welcome back in the house again :frowning: At least not for a long time. And I told him I hated him for what he did to me :cry: I love him, but I hate how he risked our relationship for some skank bitch that he hasn't even met in real life!