I'm a girl, but perhaps inside I'm a gay guy??

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So, I've wondered what it would be like to be a guy, but not a straight guy. Maybe I've been watching too many gay themed movies. I have yet to watch a lesbian movie. I watched a lesbian short film, but I just got annoyed.I like the silence, the unspoken rules (but only when they're broken), the tension between best friends, the masculinity of forms and the femininity and softness of love and affection. Women just spill everything sometimes, all at one time. In heterosexual relationships there's the short courting and they jump into bed, then I'm bored. I like when guy friends test boundaries and break the rules. I like the awkward tension, trying to see which way their friends go.Emotionally I identify with men more. I don't express my feelings well. I don't hug or kiss my friends when I greet them or haven't seen them for a long time. I don't talk about my feelings.I like how guys can go shirtless, and if they're in good shape, they won't have the sacks of flesh hanging from their chests. The do have this tubular "boob" shaped thing called a penis just hanging around, so I do like that being a girl I don't have that. Everything is tucked neatly, almost, inside. Oh yeah, guys don't have menstrual cycles, that is completely and utterly awesome. I love the way their close hang on them, not tight and clingy like a girl's. I like their flat chest under their hoodies, their baggy jeans, the way they pull their shirts off...So what's going on with me? Maybe I just need a gay guy friend to cuddle with and not have to worry about him wanting to sleep with me. May I just really like guys.

that's interesting.I don't have any genius thoughts for you but there was this well-known transgender here in town. She went through all the steps of a sex change to become a man, then ended up only being interested in other men.

I don't want a sex change though. Perhaps if I were on "Fantasy Island", this would be my fantasy.

I did a google search and found this on another website. I'm a Straight Girl But I Wish I Were a Gay Guy

Have you tried talking this over with any other transgender people?Not meaning to imply you are trans anything there.

I don't know any transgendered people personally. There's the girl at work, but I don't know her well enough to ask her about stuff like this.I still like some of my girl parts, I wouldn't do anything permanent or take hormones. It would be nice to live as someone else for a day or week.

I'm as okay as I'm going to be right now. I'm wrestling with boyfriend trouble at the moment.

..... Interesting....I don't know what to say...Good luck with finding your way???