My dad, to put him a few words... the most ignorant man with anger issues. My whole life I hated him, the things he says to me, the things hes done to me. Just thinking about all those memories with my dad just makes me into an angry person. He always hit me when I was young and always says he is going to bruises my body. Those comments and actions have built lots of rage, insecurity, low confidence and most of all hatred for my dad. But I was too afraid to tell him how I feel. Now that I am 19 and bigger than my dad, I just want to pick him up slam his head to the ground and smash his face in, I can't stand him and I want him out of my life. I always have thoughts of fighting him even killing him... one of my greatest wishes is to just beat the shit out of him but without all the aftereffect. My dad is the reason I always come to this website and bitch about my problems. I don't have anywhere else to vent. My dad is the reason I was once suicidal. I am slowly becoming a more mature person and now I see what my dad has done to the my life and my family's lives. At least I can say that if I am ever a dad I can learn from my own dad's mistakes in raising me. Thanks for reading.
I really hate my dad.
If you try to get revenge, it will just be giving him more power in your life. These things usually just hurt you more. Shake the dust off your feet when you can, and leave him behind.
Don't do it I know the temptation. You get all tense when you think about it and grab the keys out of your pocket and hold them how you instictivley know how to and think about the places you learned in kartate that if you took the key to he would be paralized or dead. Trust me I know now my parents are never that way, ok my mom is almost that way ounce a month lol, and my dad and I don't always get along. But they never have done anything close to what your dad did. You should leave him and never look back.
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I'm sorry you're having such a bad time again. I know its tough. You need to remember that if you take revenge you are becoming like him. I had a tough childhood myself and after years of getting beat up, I was given the opportunity to beat the shit out of him. My parents were getting divorced and in the parking lot of the court house I took it and I was arrested a few hours later and booking into jail for assault and battery.
Momentarily it produced great release. All of those years worth of hatred I had came rushing up and I did some serious damage. It felt great but that great feeling went away quickly once I was booked and put into jail. It was a long 3 weeks until we got our day in court. They almost won. They almost proved it was premeditated because of all the years I had been wishing I could kick his ass.
I have not spoken to my father in over 30 years. But I am a much better man that he ever was. I made it one of my life long goals not to be him. I had many years of therapy when I was in my 20 to help me overcome my deep rooted anger issues, but I learned to let it all go and be the best father to my kids. I have NEVER raised a hand to my kids. I have NEVER hit him. Every time I start getting angry, I remember how it was when I was a kid and make sure that doesn't happen...
Dude.... you ARE better than he is. DON'T TAKE REVENGE. Be a better man. It's not worth it. He will NEVER Change. So when you're able, make a plan and move out. Start your life with a little bit of an edge than everyone else because you already know what you DON'T want to become.
You'll be fine! It will get better for you and you Are a better man already for taking the first steps to change the cycle....
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The BEST thing u can do is just walk away from the issues u are having. My dad died when i was 15, and no matter what problems we ever had i wish to this day he was still here with me. I understand some things cant be worked out, but at least u have the "chance or opportunity" to make things right IF possible.
I'm sorry you father passed. It must have been rough for you. But I had a HORRIBLE childhood. I still have nightmares of my father beating the shit out of me in one of his drunken rages.... I haven't seen him in over 30 years and I don't want to. I don't want to see the piece of shit for brains ass wipe. I honestly and actually could care less if that man dies.
So I'm glad that you were able to have closure and make amends with some of your issues with your father, but I can't!
Move on away from him and the situation. Try moving to the point that you accept everything that went down but get passed it to the point that it no longer matters to where your at know. I know, from experience, that's easier said than done but I also know, again from experience, that it can be done.
Strive to get to the place in your life that he simply doesn't matter. All hating him will do is hurt and at very least frustrate you. When he no longer matters your free to move on with your life.
There is no punishment. There is no reward. There are only consequences.