Things are out of control!

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Hi! I don't know what's going on. This isn't normal anymore.I feel so disappointed and it's like I look at myself from the outside thinking wtf is this guy doing? I behave really foolish.The whole time when I thought masturbation is dangerous and not good I also did it but maybe every 3 days but then when I thought maybe it's okay it's like I got sucked into things which developed a life on their own. This simply isn't me anymore.Do you know what I did today? In the morning I jacked off listening to an audio sex tape which I had downloaded with women moaning and then later in the evening I could not get those moans out of my mind. I directly wanted to erase the mp3 again from my mp3 player but didn't do it and then those moans again tempted me and I pulled out the tenga deep throat and got lube and condoms and then went into the bathroom for guests and turned on my mp3 player listening to those moans and then started banging this thing and I came the first time after maybe 5 minutes but I wanted it to be worth it when I do all those preparations and so I put on another condom and went on and I didn't look at the watch cause I also had no watch and just kept at it and I held this thing with my hands at hip level on the wash basin and kept hitting it and then the condom burst again like yesterday cause this thing gets dry pretty fast and then I simply went on without condom and had to relube all the time and then when I ran out of lube I simply filled a few drops of warm water in it and then went on and even though I really kept going at it pretty fast and tried everything to finally ejaculate again I simply felt nothing and then I tried focusing on those moans cause I thought maybe this helps to get off and I started to totally sweat and got short breath and kept hitting it and hitting it and hitting it and then when I finally came I opened the door and looked at the clock and I had spent almost 90 minutes in there! This means when I subtract the cleaning which I did afterwards I banged this thing at least 70 minutes. I think this is insane. I also don't understand how I can bang this thing for so long until I come a second time. What if I needed as long in a real vagina? I don't think that too many chicks would like being banged for such a long time until I finally cum again.And what's even sicker is that afterwards I looked at the window and it was totally steamed! I had no hot water running or something which would explain this. And then I opened the window and touched the walls and they also were totally moist everywhere! I hope that this won't turn into a problem and cause mold. I had to use toilet paper and rub off the walls to remove as much moisture as possible.Where did all this moisture come from? From my breathing? But how is it possible that the walls and the window are steamed up?This is really shocking somehow.Anyway I hope none of you thinks I wrote this to show off or brag about me humping an artifical vagina for 70 minutes. What do you think about this? Does this sound pathologic? Somehow this seems totally perverted and twisted to me. I mean even if I had a gf then doing this kind of in-out as fast as possible sex is more like sport and doesn't have much to do with sex anymore or am I wrong? It's like all you focus on is going as fast as possible and finally cumming.

Pretty normal, I think. The steam came because you got hot with the exercise. The windows would have steamed up the same way if you had been doing running on a treadmill or something like that. All good exercise.In real sex most guys don't go for a second round straight away. If they do go for seconds (and they usually don't), it's after some recovery time.The biggest danger is that you might rub your penis sore, and have to rest it a day or two to let it heal.

Doesn't sound like anything strange to me. I don't see anything to worry about. You were enjoying yourself and lost track of time, nothing unusual about that.

But isn't this somehow sick or concerning? I mean instead of sleeping I bang this thing in the middle of the night for over an hour and it wasn't even really fun it felt like pure work. I wonder if banging a real vagina feels the same after you've come once because then it would be really pointless to go on because you feel nothing and when you come the second time then you only start to feel something when you're already close to ejaculating but the whole time before this you feel nothing.I also think that if you stay hard and don't go flaccid after cuming first then you need longer to cum again compared to allowing yourself to go flaccid for a minute and then going on. But what's also weird is that I tore 2 condoms in this thing. If condoms tear as quickly when you have real sex then condoms really aren't safe at all. As soon as it gets dry in there you quickly tear it. And the thing is also starting to fall apart and small pieces of the soft material are coming off but since it's way too expensive to only use once you have to use it more often but then it gets dry and even when you apply extra lube then it also only lasts a few minutes. I don't think I can use this thing without condom anymore without putting myself at risk because the moisture in there will most likely sooner or later become a problem. Have you ever banged a fake pussy or a real pussy for over 1 hour straight? I already knew that I can stay hard even after ejaculating when jacking off but I never thought that this is anything special because usually when I jack off I come pretty fast and jacking off is not the same as banging a real hole because when you jack off you only move your hand compared to moving your body. I don't really know how to estimate this. Do you think all men could do this or am I somehow a sex machine with insane stamina and potency lol?How is potency defined? Can a person which comes quickly but after than can go on for a totally long time still be totally potent?

The vagina is not a plastic/rubber tube and that tube was probably not intended to be used with a rubbery condom.. get a grip.

I'm certainly not assuming anything based on one occurrence, but if you often find yourself forcing yourself to masturbate despite not feeling any arousal at all, that's a pretty good indicator of a sexual addiction.Outside of that, if this is something that has just happened this one time, then it pretty much sounds like the sort of stupid self-love experience all guys have had at one time or another.

In a real-life situation, if lubrication failed, the woman would normally push you off long before the condom failed, because it would be too painful for her.Condoms can break, though, if they are weakened by age or being kept in a warm place or contact with oil. Very occasionally they break without any obvious reason. So they are not 100% effective, and a back-up is desirable.There's no authoritative definition of 'potency', but it is usually defined as ability to sexually penetrate the female, which doesn't seem to be in question at all.

I am really disappointed. I nailed another rubber pussy. Not a fleshlight but a cheaper one which looked almost like a fleshlight. It had nops on the inside but I felt nothing. I also used a condom because I didn't want to put my naked penor in there. I felt a sucking effect and kept pumping away but it really wasn't special. I even had a hard time staying hard. I don't know, this pussy got good reviews from others but I thought it was disappointing. Maybe sex simply isn't for me. Maybe a real pussy also wouldn't feel much different especially with a condom. Boy, when I imagine dating a girl and investing time and money into this and then finally having sex and then it feels like this rubber pussy then it would be SOOOOO disappointing. :frowning:

Quote: investing time and money into this What are you referring to?

Originally Posted By: readytogo What are you referring to? I mean that having a gf is not inexpensive. You have to buy clothes and rings for them and invite them to dinner etc.

Quote:I mean that having a gf is not inexpensive. You have to buy clothes and rings for them and invite them to dinner etc. And you do all this for...sex? I'm sure she'll be thrilled to be in the same class as a hooker.

Not all for sex but sex plays a huge role. I mean let's be serious. Many women today also marry a man only in order to have financial security. They marry a man and let him hump them and in exchange they get a credit card. This is how it is.

No, I think financial security was at one time important - a hundred years ago a woman who didn't marry would have trouble supporting herself - but not now.

No you don't...just don't date a gold digger or women that believes that men should pay for everything. Me and my boyfriend hangout out, it's not expensive, but we're pretty simple people. The only that might cost more is when we go to shows or concerts, but we've each bought our own tickets...so it's not a big deal.

You bring up an interesting point Tangled. Do you guys make a distinction between a date, where your boyfriend would pay, and "just hanging out" where you both would pay? That just seems like a reasonable way of doing things. If you do this, is it just an "understood" thing, or something you have to clarify?