after years and years of being "diagnosed" (as in partially diagnosed, no one ever went all the way w/anything. they just gave me drugs) with just about anything and everything, finally i have a solid diagnosis-- ocd. that seems to be the consensus up her at my university. so i was put on respirodone, which is somewhat horrible and somewhat wonderful at the same time. ive been told that i seem happier, and i think i feel happier 2...but still theres that little voice in the back of my head saying "but for how long?"u c, i have these short periods of peace and happiness, usually following some kind of epiphany. by this point ive learned not to trust my epiphanies. i have also been diagnosed as anemic, and told to take iron tablets. ever since, ive had much more energy. plus, those little voices in the back of my mind telling me to do bad things are almost completely gone. (knock on wood)the doctors here thing that they may have been caused by the ocd, or that ocd has been making me suicidal. anyway...i guess i feel good, except when i think about a few select things:1. the fact that some day my mood will just drop and ill go back to how it was2. the fact that i may be pregnant, which i find out for sure tomorrow morning3. i think i may be ugly4. im afraid of things not working out between me and my bf...i just dont see him anymore...and my other friend, who is also back home, is seeming better and better. i get butterflies and everything. its amazing but it sucks.so yeah...i guess to sum this all up, im afraid of things not working as they should, since they never seem to do that in my life. or am i just being anhedonic again?