I went a long time (about 7 years) without any friends until I met someone last year who was really cool with me and I'm happy that I finally have someone that I can call my friend.
We started off emailing back and forth everyday and occassionally hanging out and as the friendship progressed so did our level of trust and I found myself able to tell her anything and she opened up with me a lot too.
She has a husband but she told me she was polyamorous and explained to me what kind of relationship they had. Me being open minded was totally cool with her being that way.
But then as we got closer, when hanging out watching movies or whatever, it gradually got to the point where we would snuggle up to each other which progressed into more intimate hugging. Then one day while trading secrets she revealed she sometimes felt like kissing me to which I responded that I felt the same way.
So next time we hung out we kissed and then it happened again a few times after that.
Now here is where I start getting confused. Up until this point I figured we were just really close friends which seemed to be the way she treated it as well.
Only as time went on, it almost seems like we are no longer that close. Without any talk of it, we just no longer do anything intimate with each other anymore and I have no idea why.
I would be totally cool with it if it wasn't for the fact she never said anything. It's like she suddenly decided she didn't want to be as close anymore without telling me why. We don't even have any deep conversations about each other, like she has lost interest in me as a friend.
She still asks me to hang out quite a lot so we are still good friends, I just don't understand why all of a sudden things changed like this?
Feels like a bit of a long post and if I haven't explained things very well feel free to say. I'm just so confused right now.