Alright, so i've been dating this guy for about a week now.. He is really sweet in every way and knows when to give me my space. So, yesterday I gave him the first kiss or whatever... I'm not exactly sure how it went though... Felt like I wasn't really kissing his lips. Like, they weren't there. I tried a few more times and was disappointed because they all turned out the same way.
He hasn't said anything about it, and I really would rather not... I think its because his lips are small..? But, other then that part.. I'm not really attracted to him in a physical way..? I'm not exactly sure where to go from here. Like, do I just keep trying?
Also, might as well bring this up. My ex boyfriend (whom I still live with him and his parents for reasons... etc.) has started talking to me again. He has a girlfriend now but he will still be all up in my space and will try to bother me. Every once in awhile I get the sense that he still wants to be with me. He will bring things up about my current bf trying to get me to break up with him and he will also bring up how I never talked to him about things or kept them hidden. Also, like... He will rough house and like, hold me and rock me around and such. Every once in awhile we will have a awkward moment where sexual experiences from our past will be reminded. Like, I was trying to get him off of me and we kinda fell on the bed with me on top and it was just... It was.. Not awkward I guess but.. It was there. I'm not really sure of my feelings on him. We were together for like 2 years but after our break up he has pissed me off numerous times. Even though I was the one to break up, I still was in love with him. I just wanted him off my ass. He was ALWAYS there. Going to the kitchen, bathroom, outside, doing chores... Whatever. I just could never be alone for long and the moments when I would be quiet or depressed he would always bother me about it with constant "What's Wrong?"'s and would try to make me laugh when in reality I wanted to be alone. I still have a bit of feelings for him but, I just dont know my feels about it. I sense signals though.
What do you guys thing?
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Boyfriends Kisses Suck
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@OinariMiyako I think you really need to figure out what you want to do and with whom..... You should let the new boyfriend know youre not physically attracted to him and let him go on his way istead of leading him on and eventually hurting him.
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Welcome, OinariMikako!
It sounds like neither guy is right for you.
Living with an ex-boyfriend is not a happy idea, and with his parents as well . . . I don't know how easy it would be to get out, but it seems to me you need some time unencumbered.