Today I watched some amateur porn and afterwards I felt really dirty and disgusted.
I am not sure why wether it's because porn is dirty in general or because those people in amateur
porn usually look pretty ugly and pathetic. For example when a really fat bitch is nailed in the ass but a really
old guy then this is pretty repelling and then I also feel dirty for watching it.
I guess if the people on the other hand where beautiful and really had nice bodies it would be less repelling but
I have also watched normal porn and then also felt dirty.
I worry that if I had real sex with a chick I might feel dirty afterwards, too, the same way I feel dirty after watching porn.
I simply think that some positions like for example when the guy stands behind the woman and then nails her in the ass
and has one of his legs on the ground and the other one is standing in front of the woman then this looks really ugly.
What also really bothers me about amateur porn is that when I for example see these ordinary non-beautiful women doing all
these really really nasty things and acting like real whores then when I go out for example to a store and see normal women out there
then I cannot help but think wether they also act like whores in the bedroom. This is disturbing to me.
Some women in amateur porn look like nice ordinary old grannies where you think they'd never do anything nasty and then you see
them getting banged in the ass. This is somehow hard to deal with for me. It makes me think that all women are totally whorish in the bedroom.
This almost makes me feel nauseous when I think about it. :(