When I get in the mood to satisfy myself.. I feel like I get out of control in my mind.. from telling myself "i want to suck a guy off!" Or get fucked while I'm jerking off, or run to the store to buy anus toys so I can feel them inside me while I finish myself off.. to constantly wanting to suck myself off and finish in my mouth. I am completely down for anything until I shoot my load. Then reality comes back and I do not have the same feelings. Then I'm glad I didn't act on my impulses.
Until the next time I'm horny it's starts over!!!!
I do always love tasting my preCum and hate wasting it.
I hope some people have the same thoughts!
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Crazy thoughts when horny.
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@LoveMyPreCum Welcome to A2A. Since your post is actually a reply to an earlier one, and since my thoughts are unchanged from what I posted then, I will only remind you that our brains don't seem to be engaged during sexual arousal. We often consider things during arousal that we would disavow after an orgasm.
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I’m the same... I have deleted like 5 afraid to asks accounts every time I lose my hornyness
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@LoveMyPreCum This topic has existed for as long as forums go back (Ive participated in self cum thirst discussions since around 1999). Even still it feels brave to be opening the subject up. It's so delicately woven into the already fragile male psyche.
Experiencing receiving your own semen goes beyond an experience of flavor. It requires emotional surrender to the point where you can receive the essence of yourself. This is about nothing more, or less, than complete self communion. You are learning to give, to receive, and to exchange with yourself.
Self thirst is a profound experience in the prejaculatory space, with the body holding semen and the emotional wave yet to crest. Thats plenty of energy to contain, and it spins the psyche into a molten and self honest state. And in that space your self thirst will feel especially beautiful. That alone is profound. Pause when you're there and be with your self thirst. Your thirst contains your love for yourself. If you say the words, it will be easier to experience: 'my self thirst is my self love'.
Say that over and over (you will probably orgasm and spurt). Now, its known throughout our part of the galaxy that the drop in libido after climax leads many men to not want their semen, to be repulsed by it, and as Diamond has said, even to be ashamed for days. (How do you feel when someone else drinks up your goo?)
There are two hemispheres to the psyche: one that thirsts and loves, and the other that's shameful and repulsed. They live with one another. Which you aspire to be determines who you become. The process also includes integrating the repulsion/shame side with the love/thirst side.
Imagine all the times that you let yourself thirst wildly. Then you produced your semen and did not fulfill your thirst. Just because you might lose awareness of your thirst does not make it go away. Indeed it gets stronger with each passing experience.
Imagine that the shameful/repulsed side of your psyche is really just thirsty and yearning for love. When you give yourself your semen, you are fulfilling your need for your self love. That's why you'll eventually learn how to be thirsty when you have your semen; to experience self love in the presence of your semen.
I suggest you try two things, if you would consider them. One is to arrange with a female friend to accompany you as you strip, be horny, masturbate, and thirst. Let her help you cross over the little gap in yourself. It's best if she's dressed for this, so you experience her as something other than directly sexual: you want her as a loving presence, to help you sustain your self love. I learned to receive and swallow my semen in the presence of women. It's still a deeply pleasurable ritual for me. I explore the mantra, 'my self thirst is my self love', in the presence of love.
Second is, a mirror: one of those 99 cent ones at the dime store. A small hand mirror, shaving mirror, whatever. This is going to become your cum platter. Bring yourself off and if you don't want to swallow, leave your semen on the mirror. (Keep it away from cats, dogs, kids, etc.). Then when you are horny again, take out the mirror and contemplate it. Experience the beauty of the ejaculation you left there, and lick some of yourself.
The mirror is your meeting place, between self who thirsts, and self who offers semen. You might ejaculate onto the mirror repeatedly until you catch the crest of the wave and start licking yourself back in. You will get very, very horny doing this. And you will love it as your cum bursts into your mouth in emotional release. You can lick your hand and masturbate with a slick mix of old semen and spit, Massage your cum into your cock. Semen is the best lube.
If this seems a little gross, get into that fact and explore. Here's where your shame melts down to something pliable, where you can stretch and open up. When that fresh semen goes onto the mirror, you'll be in a pretty hot mood to lick it up, whether youre alone or with a friend.
Honesty is deeply erotic in this state, so open up and say what you need to say to yourself. And remember, your self thirst is your self love. So, thirst, and lure yourself into love, and thirst some more and love easily. Nourishing yourself is so beautiful.
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Wow I also you my Precum and love to swallow my own cum can’t get enough of it once I start I swallow 3 huge loads every time I jerk off ... a girlfriend got me into it a couple of years ago
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Many people like to do this, and it seems to me that this is normal.
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@LoveMyPreCum
I have the exactly same problem!!!🍆🍒
