Yeah whatever, another failure!

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Last 3 days, I've really fucked my life up. I've got no friends, nobody that can help me. I was on beta-blockers which were helping a TINY bit! but my anxiety is so extreme I'm usually sick in the morning followed with a really dodgy stomach ache through the rest of the day. Which also tends to make me eat nothing, and so on a weekly basis my weight goes up and down - usually lose 4 pounds or so each week then the next I put 4 on again and then lose it. I'm only 17 As SOME of you may know I saw a therapist, who I decided to run away from because I was too embarrassed. I'm sick of this running away and I'm sick of facing stuff and BEING ILL!I'M SOOOO FUCKING UPSET !!!!!!! I'M SUPPOSED TO BE GETTING BETTER NOT WORSE AGAIN. ARGH! FOR FUCK SAKE! WHY AM I EVEN TYPING THIS!? IT'S ALWAYS MOVED A SIDE WHEN TALKED ABOUT. FUCKING LIFE, I'D RATHER LIVE IN PRISON OR A MENTAL HOSPITAL THAN LIVE A LIFE WHERE I'M ILL ALL THE TIME TRYING TO DO EVERYDAY THINGS!!!!! I MEAN, WHAT SORT OF PERSON GETS PHIMOSIS ALL HIS LIFE, HAS A SMALL PENIS, HAS ANXIETY TO THE POINT OF BEING SO BAD HE PUKES IN THE MORNING, HAS ACNE, HAS NO FRIENDS AND THEN IS EXPECTED TO LIVE NORMALLY LIKE NOTHING IS WRONG? What a major fuck up this world is. Disgusts me that people have to go through this or MUCH WORSE. Defining Normal is another person's opinion of what NORMAL is, because people who don't have these problems regularly share this SAME opinion, looking at someone who has problems is considered not normal and a failure, FACT.

dude i know how you feel. I have been wanting to commit suicide for a while now... I usually just get high and that helps with my depression. =\

heh i Have an idea of what your going through...I may get banned for even saying this but try weed, It isn't bad for you (despite what people tell you) and it REALLY takes the edge off

that's the dumbest thing to say

i agree with the weed thing

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look i may not ave the best advice but ur only young u ave ur hole life ahead of u dont spoil it by killing urself, dont be assamed of being depressed and seein a doc about it believe me they can help u, try be patient wid them it isnt guna be fixed jst like that, u too need to be very determined to help urself aswell as relying on the doc to sort it out 4 u. oh and to dat PRICK dat gave the advice on using weed it aint the best solusion belive me nothin is worse than being a drug addict coz i started on weed and 1 thing lead to another and b4 i knew it i was on herion and pills. so my advice to u (alone i break) SHOP WHILE U CAN!!! coz it aint the easiest thing to get over!!!!!!!!!!

get your facts straight retard weed isnt addictive. Dont you realize america is behind on this shit since most contries legalzied weed. Weed is less harmful than smoking cigaretts

Weed is FAR better for you than ciggarettes hands down, It can be addictive but ONLY if your smoking like $100 of it a day...If you are smoking clean unspliced weed you will NOT get addicted, No bad side affects (unlike the shit the doctors give you when your down)If you haven't tried weed don't even comment here about it, because then your just listening to the media who try and make it sound bad for you Oh and weed isn't really a drug, if you add pain killers etc, it's a drug, Get your facts straight it isn't cocaine or meph or even E. So give me a break...Oh and to the moron who called me a prick, Are you the hooked on phonics poster boy?

I'm feeling a tiny bit better. But I still cannot get over what I have been experiencing. I guess I feel everything falling on me all at once and I cannot take the weight.I need a girl friend, I need someone ! I'm a really nice guy, but all the girls are too shy to speak to me. Maybe I feel like I need someone because I have nobody? Whatever the reason I deserve someone. People think I'm a Christian - or some random working for the church, because I'm so kind - just to give you an idea. I help everyone, I give to everyone, but I do not receive, why is that?Lately I've been turning to God more than ever. I'm gonna pray tonight to him - see what the big guy up there can do.I really apreciate some of the suggestions but weed isn't my thing, sorry to say. And on a side note, you guys give me more time than anybody else (has tear in eye).Thanks you so much. I'm emotional but feeling better.

I can't relate to the religion part at all... Over the past few years i've turned away from "god" and become somewhat of an athiest(sp?)If there was a god the world wouldn't suck so much

Yeah well, I try not to think about it like that, it makes me feel more depressed. Christianity actually makes me feel happier. I like reading the bible time to time and I always say sorry to god when I use his name in vain by accident. Maybe I'm naturally religious? and no nobody in my family is religious, so it is odd I take a keen interest in it alot.

i wish i had a girlfriend

Great, pray to God. After he doesn't answer maybe you'll realize he doesn't exist.

InSearch - great way to start a conversation, or should I say, stir a little bit of shit up?So what, I pray to God. Maybe he doesn't answer in the way you think, maybe he doesn't answer at all. But the main thing is it's nice to have something to believe in. Don't force your opinion on me, thanks.

I'm not forcing anything, just showing you there is no God.

insearch you remind me of my self i don't beleve in god i think he gives ppl false hope like theres a heaven and all that shit

Agreed.

A belief in heaven is a way to hide from the fact that when you die, your gone, and theres no fluffy cloud world waiting for you When you die, your gone, No heaven, No hell, NO GOD, Your dead, buried or creamated, your dead Not in heaven Oh and god's are a means of control you obey rules and get nothing in return seems like a great deal to me.

Hi notsogood, things go wrong and we do things wrong. That's part of life, and it doesn't mean we are failures - or, if we are, we are all failures together. Other people may have different problems, different things that worry them, different things that hold them back, but we all have something.You say, "I help everyone, I give to everyone, but I do not receive, why is that?". I'm afraid that is part of helping, part of giving. You should give without expectation of return - and most of the time, you won't be wrong. It's hard work.