for that past few months i have been feeling really low and depressed. I have no real reasons to feel this way, i just do. Ive lost about 15 pounds which is a lot because i weight 125 now. I dont sleep much, right now its 12 and i have to get up for school at 6 and im sure ill be up a few more houses. Noone except a few people know what is going on with me. Those people are my girlfriend, one of her friends and one of my friends. I am really good at hiding the way i feel. I could be thining about killing myself but be showing a smile to everyone else. I used to use weight lifting to help me but i cant set up my weight bench back up til i move in 3 months and its already been about 2 weeks. I also started a band and that helps take my mind off things for those few hours we practice every few days. My gf gets concerned about me but i think it is more so she doesnt have me on her conscience.
I need help
Exercise does help depression - is there any other way you can work out?
I think it's important to stop hiding the way you feel. Why should you? There's nothing shameful about being depressed. Nor does it need a reason - it just happens. Tell your parents or a school counsellor or teacher that you trust. Get an appointment set up with a doctor. Depression is an illness and it can be treated.