I am a fucking pot head. I have been a pothead for 22 years. I had a brief hiatus for a few years, but for the last 5 or 6 i have been smoking most days all day. I am not the typical pot head because I have a job, a family and I have managed to make some money. However, I am a pot head and my addiction is limiting my life and starting to impair my advancement.Don't believe one of those idiot fucks who try to say that Pot is not physically addictive. They have either not smoked kick ass weed continuosly for years or they worse, they smoked shit weed for years and never really understood. The weed I get, and that most people can get now a days, is way better than the shit I got for 40 an ounce back in the early 80's. On a regular day I am stoned from 8am to 12am - all day every day. When I don't smoke I get agitated as hell, I can't sleep and I'm a general basket case. The few times in the past few years that I have been able to get past 3 or 4 days then things start to subside, but it has been almost impossible for me to last 3 or 4 days.However, I have lasted one fucking 24 hour period of not being stoned and I am hoping to last another 10 minutes, and then 10 more after that. I have bben to NA meetings but they are disgusting. Filled with degenerates who are invariably more fucked than me and I feel like a whiny bitch sitting in these meetings listening to these loosers that decided to do a speedball and crash their car into another car or other crazy shit.I am an upper-middle class pot head. There are many like me. We live good lives but we are fucked because we are stoned all the time. On the other hand, many of my non-pothead friends are fucked on zoloft and the like, which is probably just as bad.In any case, I am a pot head and I stopped for 24 hours. Maybe I will last another day, maybe not. The problem is that I like smoking pot. I like eating pot. I love my vaporizer (the best way to get high), and I love smoking a huge fatty of grade AAA weed and tripping while everyone else around me has no clue, or is at least so used to it that they don't give a shit anymore. On the other hand, I can't get further in my life unless I stop smoking pot and I am going to die young from cancer if I don't stop. It is in my family. I want to see my kids grow up and have kids and be there for them, however, I am slowly killing myself with all of this mother fucking weed.I can taste it now. Opening up my bag, wafting smells of incredible skunk week fill the room. The buds are full of crystals and the weed has a purplish hue. The smell is poignant and pervasive. It fills the room with one small one-hitter full. I take the first hit and in seconds, I am relaxed. I take the second, third and fourth and space out. I walk around my house or go to my office and make calls and dream of big ideas. But now it is 10:30 and I need a coffee and another few hits. This time the olifactory buzz is worse because I am in the parking lot at work. I am also not as high as I was earlier, because I never get as high as the first time, unless I smoke a full doob, in which case I will smell too bad for work.Now it's back home, smoke some more on the way. Maybe have a little dinner, take a few vaporizer hits and go for a run. Come back and smoke 2 more one-hits and then hang out with the family, It's 12:30 and i need to sleep. get back up and do it again. Maybe one more hit before bed to further deaden the senses.My life.
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I am addicted to Pot and I didn't smoke today
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Thanks for sharing. (sarcasm)
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My bad. I'm having a bad day but that's no excuse. Thought it was another one of those "weed is good for you" posts.
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I definetly can relate to your position in a miniscule way...I pretty much live your life...except through the body of a high schooler...The only difference is, of course I'm a senior in high school and lovin it, while you're a mature adult now, worrying about how this drug might be slowly affecting your life...(I'm not tryna rub it in or anything if thats what it seems) but I DID take a break, though, towards the end of my junior year, if thats any helps, for about a month... it sucked for the first few days, I experianced similar symptoms like anxiety, hard-to-fall asleep, I got moody and got agitated easily, and of coruse it doesn't help when all your friends do it... but I mean after a few days I kinda just adjusted...pot really isn't tooo physically addicting, of course what people say is BS, but then compare it something like H...my best advice I guess is just suck it up and pretty soon, you'll adjust...hope it helps
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I've not been alive 22 years to be high, but i do know quite a bit about marijuana.The best thing you can do is cut back. The best way to do this is to go without for 30 days (the time it takes to get thc out of your system). Doing this will lift the "fog" you may feel currently when you are sober. This fog is basically a large hangover. When you continually smoke, THC is leaving your body much slower than you can take it in, therefore it stays in your system, but instead of giving you the euphoric feeling, you feel groggy and easily aggrivated.Remember, there are millions of americans that live productive lives and use marijuana responsibly, but overindulgence in anything is not good for you. The best advice I can give to you is find somethign to distract you, as i said before, theres no chemical addiction to marijuana, but the many of the worst addictions you can have are purely psychological. Go play with your kids, do something with your wife, start a project. The worst thing you can do is sit. Instead of smoking to go to sleep, take nyquil, or do what I do, make a milkshake. You may get fat, but hell you won't be watching your life pass you bye while you stand in a daze.