The last 6 months+ things have been great. Family was getting along, friends were happy, school was going good. Everything was FINALLY looking up for me. I figure, great. Stuff is finally going okay.
Tell recently. The last month or so I've noticed things declining. My dad always pissed off at me. My mom not listening. My sister annoyed with me. I thought, no big deal, I can move out when I'm 18 and they don't have to see me again. Now, my own friends are turning against me. Two of them are to busy to ever talk to me, yet still try to get my answers for HW and such. One thinks I'm talking about her behind her back. She is like my best friend, I would never do that to her! So, she isn't really talking to me (And that kills me.. I really care for her and now she does this.) She is trying to get a BF and I'm afraid that will kill me even more, because she will spend most of her time with him. My best male friend and is always with his GF. My other friends are always to busy getting stoned to do anything else. So I don't really hang with them to much. Thats it, I have no one else. My internet friends are better then my life friends or atleast it seems that way. CR is always there for me, or atleast when he can. But thats it. I'm becoming alot more like.. self reliant. I figure my friends can't be there, so I have to be there for myself. Even a girl I know who doesn't have many friends and doesn't do much is ignoring me! I asked her how come she doesn't talk to me she said she just doesn't know what to say. I will be talking about EVERYDAY things and she does that. Do I not speak english? Am I that fucking boring to talk to? I'm not high all the time. Thats what I do on my own time on my own. I don't talk about it all the time. They talk about there partying WAY more then I talk about weed. So WTF? I'm getting pretty suicidal. And to make it worse, usually by the time I type this all out, I feel 10x better, but I dont this time. :confused: Sorry, I'm just venting. Wasting your time. Wait, I waste everyones :smirk: