20 years old
Single (single as you could be )
I have not been diagnose with social phobia disorder (social anxiety) but I have been spending a lot of time alone and not with anyone but I really want to but I just get this feeling that I am not. It has been that way for a long time. I have not had a girl friend and I am not sure if the reason why I have not gotten that far is because I may have social phobia disorder.
the real sad part is that I have not had my first real kiss (mock me all you want all ready used too it) back at the school I went to there was this girl that I really liked but I was just could not tell her how I felt I was full of fear and that caused me to get a depress.
I really don’t know why I was too scared to say how I felt since we have a good friendship but that was as far as it went I didn’t want to weird her out I don’t think I could have been any more wrong she said that I am really nice (that was after i left when we talked on IM). We did fun things together by going to a grave yard, having dinner at the diner in the small town but there was it nothing more, when we were doing these things I got the sense that she was thinking if I was going to say something I really wanted to but just couldn’t get the words out.
It was like feeling that we were both waiting for one of us to say something. Do you know what I mean?
when there was the school dance I finally was able to get the courage to ask if she wanted to dance but she asked me if I could find this other guy (it was loud not sure if she herd me -- that may be one of those self excuse to elude you of the truth) when I herd it just ruined my evening it still stays with me. I wanted to leave but then I didn’t want to be seen as jerk so I stayed
When I am at big social events I tend to stay away from the action even though I want to be part of it but I just get the feeling that they don’t want me there (they may or they may not be thinking that)
If you know what could help me with this I would appreciate it
Is there anything to help with social phobia?
Your examples of what makes you think you have a social disorder seem more like a confidence or shyness issue. Then again, it may be more than that and it doesn't hurt to get checked and find out the true source.
And it's you I see
But you don't see me.