i think im losing it. ive had problems with depression for years on and off. the last year or so has been the worst. blah blah blah.
tonight i was at my girlfriends house and it is our 1 year anniversary and she was ignoring me so i just layed down and faced the wall. a few minutes later i curled up into a ball and started shacking and crying. im still shaking and feel like cry. strange thing is i havent cried for months.
so my girlfriend noticed i was shaking and kind of asked me what is wrong and i didnt really say much but let out a little noice and she turned me over so i was facing her and i curled up into a ball and sqeezed her leg really tight and she went back to reading her magazine. i was shaking really bad and stuff and she never asked me if i was ok or anything. then she said that i need to go home. so i drove around for awhile and things go no better and here i am now.
my girlfriend has had problems with depression and she went to a mental inst. because her mom thought she was going o to kil herself, and she used to be really understanding of my problems and now she doesnt even care.