Theres no need to reply to this if you dont want to. I just need to vent out what ive had on my mind...Graduation was back in june (or july...whatever)....ofcorse, the first week my friends and i were happy, then came the depression...thinking that ill never see anyone from the HS again was killin me inside...It's January now and i find myself looking at old photos of good times and bad times in HS and now im even sadder then i was when i graduated! I mean, i thought i got over it after that "week" but i guess not. Even now, being out of HS and in college (or soon to be in college) i wish i was still back in HS, with my old class and everyone i know! Even those assholes who i didnt really like. I sit here, in my computer chair weaping inside, longing for HS to return to me, but i know it never will. I can't stop thinking about all the things i missed out on and how much fun it would have been if i DID IT instead of being a freggin shy mothaf***er (at times). I can't stop thinking about all the cute girls i had crushes on and how they didnt even know!And how I knew they would have said yes if i asked them out (i knew they liked me).I CAN'T STOP THINKING THAT ILL NEVER HAVE AS GOOD A TIME AS I DID BACK THEN...WITH MY FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES. I always felt soo lost, yet at peace at the same time knowing that everyone i know and love was near me.There are soo many things i could have done..but didn't. So many more friends I could have had, but didnt even bother trying because I didn't think i was "good enough" or "hip" or "cool" or whatever the fuck u call it!UGHH! As I write these final words, I wan't every one in HS who is reading this to cherish every moment they have in highschool. Take risks, dont let anything or anyONE hold u back! Believe me, you won't regret it one bit! (unless its something serious, duh!)If your a nerd, you feel like you don't fit in, or you feel like everyone hates you, dont be mad back, talk to them, ask them why they hate you. There's a resolution for everything and i know you can make friends. Take me for example: the only time i confronted someone, which was on the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL BY THE WAY, he turned out to be not that bad of a guy, we forgave and forgot and became friends, now we talk on the internet all the time (he goes to college in oregon now, im in cali)Ahh! there! I feel better already! thanx! I really needed to vent that out, ive been holding all that inside for soo long!
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HighSchool Blues....
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Wow. I'm having flashbacks. This sounds like something I could have written many years ago. Believe me, though, things will get much better when you start college. You'll make new friends and will act differently because you have learned from you high school experiences.By the way, what happened to your freshman prom sweetheart?The best times are ahead. Have faith!
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My first year out of high school I felt the same way you did. I was lonely and depressed...dropped out of one college after only one semester to start a new one the following semester. My life was chaotic. Trust me though, there will be a time when you finally realize how glad you are to be out of high school.
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I'm a senior in high school and i've already started thinking about how much I'm going to miss it. I can't wait to get out of here and be done with this school, but at the same time I know it's going to be so different later on, and I don't want things to change.
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I was a nerd in high school and I still had a blast. Probably more of a blast than many other "groups". One thing I have to say about after high school is this. After high school is when you'll find out who your true friends are. For those of you still in high school, I say forget about trying to "fit in" and caring too much about what others think about you. Find those who accept you for who you truly are and you will find those who will be your true friends.I have a friend that started caring too much about what others think about him. That started in 10th grade. Apparently I wasn't on the "in" crowd and made him look bad. At the end of 12th grade he stopped caring and realized how stupid he was being. He always refers to those days as "the dark ages" because he was being stupid and hung out with the people that didn't care about anything else other than image. Worst years of his life.Probably his motivation to "acceptance" to the "in" crowd is his girlfriend of now 4 years. She's the typical popular chick who had oh-so many friends in high school. 8 months after graduation, her "friends" are nowhere to be found.So for those still in high school, this is a lesson worth listening to.
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This is my first year out of high school as well, and I have to agree that things are totally different now. Especially with this being our first major break in the year, I realize that even at home things are different. I go to an out of state college, so I was away from home the whole semester with little contact with my family. After coming back, I feel like a guest in my own home. I call my old high school friends, do things with people I graduated with, and talk about good times we had in high school, but at the same time its even different hanging out with the same old guys. They have moved on as well, and we're all getting ready to go our seperate ways. Yeah, its true that you can't keep in touch with everybody you've ever met, but find the people from high school that mean the most to you, and get enough information to keep in contact with them, like address, email, IM names, and phone numbers. Contact them as often as you feel you need. I promise you though, as soon as you get out in the world, you'll make new friends, and life will slowly, or even quickly in some cases, move to the inevitable next step, and you'll have to leave some things behind along the way. Yeah, sometimes I think back and wish I could have stopped time with the friends I used to have, but once you accept whats happening and decide to move on, you'll fall in love with a new life. This is our first major break, as I said, and I can't wait to leave again, even though I initially missed home. I can't wait to go back to school and see the friends I made there, and make new friends still. I was talking to a kid at school, and asked him why he stayed locked up in his room all the time and never did anything social. He said it was because he knew he'd be graduating even from college in no time, and didn't want to have to say good-bye to anybody he'd became really good friends with. I DEFINITELY don't recommend THAT, though. Never be afraid to make new friends, they'll always come in handy, and if theyre meant to last, they will.
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Well im still in grade 12.. but i moved and had to change schools during my final year which was rough. At my old school.. i wasnt a loser.. i talked to everyone and everyone knew who i was. I miss it.. but since i left my friends.. ive realized who has been the better friends out of everyone... my 2 best friends.. i never talk to.. theyre to involved with their boyfriends.. but the people who i talked to.. who i ate lunch with.. who i considered by "just school" friends.. are closer than ever.. we see eachother outside of school more than the year and a half that i went to school with them before...but it is true that you will realize who your true friends are when you leave. I know
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heyYour post really struck out at me, i know how you feel completely with the whole thing about holding things in, but ya know, i lkove being pout of high school. i hated it and am so glad to be away from it! there are so many things you can do now youre not there anymore! im at uni and never felt so good, you can make new friends and build a new life away from all that. yopu may feel bad to begin with, but it will start to gfet better, hated being here at first, but now, it is the best thinbg that has ever happened to me! and you will find that when you moive on with your life, you wont wanna go back! there is so much out there, you just gotta find your meaning and do what youre passionate about.Take care, Love Becky xxx