OK I'm scared, Scared of never being able to get pregnant. Scared of stds , and mainly scared of cancer. About 5 years ago about 4 months after first ever having sex.I was just kinda examining myself when Inoticed my cervix felt weird. It stuck out and kinda curved I had never noticed it before and has since been so scared that i have cancer. I have never been to the docter. I have bouts where i will completely convince myself that I have cancer and will feel Like Im dying and there is no purpose to be here. I hate it I hate fearing this I hate living like im dying. I have never had any strange vaginal bleeding or any serious pain. I have heavy periods and cramps that are sometimes really bad. Sex hurts sometimes , My cervix is about the same not gotten much bigger still sticks out though , I dont feel usually sick.I never really get fevers or anything.I am very prone to yeast infections. I know feminine cancers are usually symptomless and that scared me even more. My grandma had uterine cancer and survived My sister had the begining cells of cancer but they were frozen and removed. Almost all of my uncles and aunts have died of cancer. I have had sex with ten men. Im only 20 years old. I don't know what to do anymore. I dont want to die and I dont want to get sick, But I know I need to go to the docter and just get checked out But the fear eats away at me so bad I can't bring myself to doing it. i almost do then i have a massive panick attack.. PLease is there anything i can do or anyone on here that knows maybe what I'm going through.... I'm sick of feeling sick and crazy. Sick of being scared and sad... I just want to be normal , and someday have a child...
I am so scared.... :(!
Go to the doctor. It's normal for a cervix to be titlted. You just need to go to the doctor to have a regular well woman exam. You're over 18 and sexually active. It's time you put your worries aside and take responsibility. Lots of women have painful cramps and heavy periods. That doesn't mean something is wrong. A lot of women go on the pill to control that.
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I can't even begin to imagine the amount of anxiety you are in, but through the tone of voice of your post I can tell that you are extremely nervous and worried. I do not have much medical experience with the female genitalia, and can only offer advice as to what I would do in such a situation.
If you feel comfortable, you might want to bring up this topic with a trusted female friend or relative. I agree with Amanda's suggestion to see a doctor. If indeed your notions are true, detecting cancer in its early stages is very critical. Delaying your visit to the doctor only gives any cancer more time to hurt your body. I understand that you are scared, but also know that there are many people who will support you. Your family, for one, is a great well of support. I'm sure that your friends will also help you in whatever way they can. Posting on forums is a great way to prepare yourself mentally and to relieve anxiety that have built up. However, please promise yourself that you will see a doctor and make sure to fullfill that promise.
Remember that your fears are all in your head, a strong will and steady courage can help you fight whatever it is you are facing.
Best of Luck,