just want some advice on a situation I am having.
History: Ok it all started 4 years ago, I was a freshmen in high school, I meant a girl. We proceed to go into a dating relationship. We fall in love, we were together for about 1.5 years. Within that time we do everything, we have our first everything with each other. Then we break up, because her parents catch us when she had her shirt off and they don't want us together. We are now juniors in high school, we are separated, but we still make-out, we still have sex, etc, she even invites me to her parents house when they are out of town. We also tell each other that we love each other. Then at the beginning of senior year she goes to a dance with another guy, fine by me. That guy turns out to be nothing; we continue what we were doing for the past 1.5 years. Then this last December, I'm thinking things are getting better with her parents, we sort of start toying with the thought of getting back together, she is all for the idea. I find out she likes another guy, she says she doesn't and will not like him. Just FYI, in the month of December we meant up with each other about 7 times, and did the usual stuff ranging from oral, fingering, and bj. She brought condoms one time we meant in the middle of December, but were unable to find a good place to have sex. Over Christmas break we aren't able to see each other still talking on the phone, having phone sex etc.
Problem: Ok this is where it gets interesting. The day before we go back to school, she calls me says she is horny, is fingering herself, and talking dirty saying she wants to do everything, and she loves me so much. That Monday we get back, she is asked out by that guy she said she didn't like. She says yes. She calls me and tells me. My heart is broken. She says she still cares and loves me. That Friday, I ask if I can see her, she says yes. I go see her and we end up kissing. She says she won't break up with him. The next Monday we get back to school, she has a huge hicky on her neck. I talk to her about it and tell her how much I care and love her. She says she still loves me and cares about me. The following week, we kiss yet again, (I feel up her leg and she looks at a particular part of me etc...) and then she gets another hicky on her neck. And since then about a month and ¾ I have been trying to tell her how I feel, and get her back. She says she does care and love me. She still sees me, hugs me, and when I go and kiss her she does nothing, but I never do. It has been a month since they got together. Now she tells me that she wasn't playing me, or using me. She says he is the best boyfriend ever. (Prior and during their relationship, she said she never wanted to have a long relationship, now he says he wants to stay with her through college, and she is wanting to go to a college near by him now.) hmmm...
So do I have a reason to be hurt, am I just crazy, am I a stalker, is she a player, is she doing the right thing, am I doing the right thing?
Any insights on the situation would be great, any ideas about how to get over this would be great, and any just advice would be great. Thanks. Sorry it's so long.