Last year, in 7 grade, was the worst year of my freakin life. I hated my life!! i so wanted to die.( want to note that i'm very insacure about myself) Someone called me ugly, and i felt like i wanted to go home and shove a knife through my heart. But i didn't. Everyday i woudln't talk to anybody, maybe a giggle, or 2 giggles at lunch with my so called "friends" they ignored me. but i still hung out with them. they wer the only ones i had. Any ways. Every day i would look more depressed than i was the day before. Then one day i had this worst day in my life. I don't know wut exacly happened, but i just couldn't take it anymore. So when i got hom from school, i took a overdose of medicine. And i mean, a BIG overdose of my ADHD medicine. My mom came home and and i about freaked. I didn't want her to know, but i did want her to know and i couldn't stand thinking about wut my mom would do if i died. At this point, i was very dizzy and light headed, i felt like i could faint. I told my mom everything and she called the docter, blah blah blah. Luckly, the medicine hadn't really kicked in at that point and i was taking to a hospital in time. I'm here today, siting in this chair, thinking back at what i did. I can't believe i did that. I'm still a little depressed, but i would never think twice about trying to kill myself again. I'm older and more mature now, and I laugh all the time. I'm like a regular teen now. I have friends now, and beleive it or not, they care about me! Best friend,(won't say name)who i love very much and i care about a lot. I got my first boyfriend, who I fell in love with a month after i met him. He's awsome. And i feel a lot better about myself now. I've goten a lot pretier, and more sofesticated about myself. And now, when someone brings me down about something, i say w/e and forget about it. And thats good. I've been going to my counsler for this whole 8 grade year of mine. And i think i'm starting off at a good start. Each day, i get a little bit happier. I hope nobody ever tries to commit suicide. I know its going to happen. But just read my story. And please don't try to go through wut i did. Don't try to kill yourself. I know u can't help being depressed, but think before u kill yourself. Tell yourself that wut would my family do? what about my friends? wut about everyone who i love, and they love me 2? Just think...don't go through wut i did.
pm me if u have any questions or things to tell me..
~~Peace... </font color>
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