I dont know where else this would fall into. Well today... I had fucked day. I just hated everyone. I was pissed off all day... I dont know why... I wasn't even thinking about weed.. so i dont think thats it.. At first i thought maybe.. but i been home for a while.. and havn't felt the need to smoke any yet... I'm not feeling depressed anymore.. Just like a pyscho and sucidal... I just want to kill everyone... The weed at first was helping this... but it isn't now... Is it possible to have a disorder.. which causes you to think like a total pyscho People who have talked to me.. have told me that i talk .. act.. sound.. like a pyscho ( Just things i talk about ) Anyways.. I will stop wasting everyones time.. I just dont know whats up with me today..
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Guess i will post here
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i think im like that somedays.oh,im definitely like that somedays.
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FaBMX just out of curiosity, how old are u?
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I'm 16. I have a question.. Can the heat make you like i was yesterday?! It was hot yesterday... and after i posted.. i took a nice cool shower.. and felt better... Think it was a heat thing?
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Not sure.. I havn't been really feeling like weed.. so i'm not smoking tonight. Not depressed.. Just always tired.. I dont know why i'm posting... Two of friends ( female ) are like butt buddys now.. and there both acting like bitches to everyone. Its pissing me off.. My friend is ALWAYS with his damn GF.. My other friend ( female ) seems to be with her other friend more and more.. Seems like i'm rebecoming lonely AGAIN.. got another kid I'm starting to hangout with more and more .. One problem tho.. He is a senior. Which means.. This is his last year.. and is involved in alot of clubs and such ( pretty smart ) and plus.. seniors are busy.. cause there leaving.. So i dont know what to do.... Im back to the death threats.. Don't know why tho.. Not depressed ( i dont think ) not sucidal.. but just.. i dont know
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I just want to vent again.. sorry... My dad is SERIOUS about the 600 mile move.. He told me last night.. he is like.. I dont think i want to buy another car ( thinking about a SUV or Truck for mom ) cause if we do that.. we cant move over there.. so now im on the buy a new car band wagon.. I dont want to move up there.. Its a POOR town.. not that all the slum settle there.. its just there is no work.. and everything is all slow paced.. I HATE THAT.. It would be nice for a few things.. but get boring as hell.. I get bored when im just up there for a few days... Just venting
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Not pleasant when you have no say.
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Where is it that he wants to move to.
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Nor Cal... .. Now I'm actually feeling something that i havn't felt in a long time... Depressed. Called my friend. .he is busy.. He is always busy now.. other friends have sports.. and other things... Im actually feeling depressed... This is weird.. Very weird.. I havn't felt this in a while now. I don't know what to think.. The feeling of worthlessness.. sucidal feelings... hate... no care. Im sure this is just a normal depression thing.. not my normal ones.. I hope..
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I'm so feeling like just killing myself right now.. Seriously.. First.. fake weed.. someone was prank calling my cell phone... Fuck it.. I will just slit my wrist and end it.. I dont care anymore.. Im failing.. Im abusing drugs to cover up my problems.. Even tho i think its helping.. I dont think it is.. Im stupid.. Fuck it.. I quit.. I dont want to play this game anymore
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You need to seek professional help. Nobody on here can help you with your problems at this point.
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Great, Now I'm so fucked up I can't even help myself...
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Is it normal to sit here and deny i have problems? I was thinking about help tomorrow.. But i keep denying i have any problems.. *SIGH*.. maybe right them down and give them to the lady?
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I give up.
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Give up.. Your arn't the first. I calmed down a little.. I went to a chat for depressed people, and talked a little bit.
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you don't seem to want to listen to anyone on here, and post about how depressed you are, but refuse to get help, so what else is there for us to do?
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I use this site bascily as a way to vent. When I'm upset, I come here to get it off my chest. Get help.. What will they do to me.. Dope me up on happy pills.. sounds like a great life to me
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it's a better life than getting high all the time...real smart, there's a whole lot more than "happy pills" when it comes to professional help
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You do need help FaB. Writing it down and giving it to someone sounds like a good idea to me. You do have a problem, the first step is to admit it. The second is to help yourself.