Guess i will post here

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How can it be trashed? I have tons of disks laying around in my bookbag and nothing has ever happened to them. I just think you're making up a lot of excuses so that you don't have to deal with your problems.

You STFU..... And the rain thing was a joke..

STFU?

Shut The Fuck Up

very mature

Yes, It is.. So take a hint

Let us know how things go tomorrow FaB.

DAMNIT!!! She wasn't here.. and I wont deal with any of the other ones cause I only trust her.. Her classroom was also locked after school.. Im still totally dedicated.. I informed my friends that I'm going to go get help and they thought it was great idea.. Hopefully she is there tomorrow.. But she might not be cause of spring break. ( next week ) I was at lunch.. I go.. as soon i see her.. Im gone.. then i told them i was going to go get help.. I wasn't as nervous about it today as i was yesterday.. Its just finding her ( Pretty busy.. but im sure she will have time for me ) If I can't find her tomorrow at lunch.. I will just leave her a note or something... for the monday we come back to school.. I kinda like this idea now.. Get help.. Be kinda weird not wanting to kill everyone

yeah man!
i like your new attitude. :sunglasses:

Maybe you can even find out her e-mail and sent her a letter.

I came up with another crazy idea.. Yes ANOTHER .. What would be better for treating my depression/dionosing (SP?) The family doctor or the school lady? I was talking to my dad tonight.. and I asked him if all the insurance was straitened out.. He said it was.. so we have insurance for sure now ( thought we did before.. but then he had just got a new job )... And this gets crazier.. When I talked to my mom ( a long time ago ) about depression.. she kinda like ignored it.. and I know why ( had a sister kill herself )... Here is the crazy part.. Talk to my dad about it.. Atleast he will tell my mom i need to seriously get help.. If i do that.. I can get help maybe next week ( Opening with the doctor.. not sure if there is a waiting list.. I dont make a habit out of the doctor ) .. So what do you guys think will be better? I mean.. Looking at it.. My parents will find out any way.. As soon as i say attempted sucide .. They will have my parents on the phone.. So.. WTF.. mines as well go through my parents.. I think as of right now.. I will just tell my dad... One of the more major things that helped me deciede to get help ( actually been throwing it around for a few weeks.. just never posted.. I dont think ) Is weed.. It helped me think clearer.. and i was happy.. and I liked it... But then I went.. This drug is helping me see this.. I have to use this drug for this.. So i went i better get help.. So i can enjoy weed without HAVING to do it to stay happy... So back to question.. Doctor or lady at school? Maybe like this - Goto physican and get drugs/or whatever( you know what i mean ) Then goto lady.. explain what im doing.. and how my grades are shit ( .8333 GPA as of two weeks ago ) and maybe their is a thing.. where they can help me pass.. for recovering depression people? Thanks guys

Either one is good because they will both decide to lead you in the right direction, which is probably seeing someone other than them. Maybe it would be best if you went to the doctor first, and then when things get under way, talk to the lady about your grades and what your condition is.

Tell them both, FaBMX. And your father too. Then they can all help.

Well, I guess that lady went on vacation.. Cause she wasn't there again today.. Oh well.. I think I'm going to discuss it with my father when he comes back to town.. Maybe get a doctor apt. early next week ... Then I will let you know what they do/say... Thanks Guys

let us know how it goes FaB. Hope things go well for you.

yeah,dont leave us hanging bro.

I have one question.. If i'm not in a depressed feeling.. could the doctor still diagnose it? Since i've deceieded i need help.. I've felt better.. I'm still going to get help.... But this is always a venting thread.. This weekend my parents went out of town.. So that left me and my sister home alone for the weekend.. and $60 for good while there gone.. Which is all great.. had a good weekend for the most part. .friend dropped off some funny movies friday.. me and my friend got stoned on saturday.. and hung out.. and its been a mainly kick back weekend... ACCPET MY SISTER IS FUCKING LAZY!!!.. It pisses me off ( I'm a clean person.. just went through my room for the 2nd time this month ) She will eat.. and just go sit it on the counter( if were lucky ).. Then i have to yell at her to do it.. She will just leave her food and drink wherever she is at.. Its so annoying.. This morning i had to yell at her to get dressed and do her chores.. She is like i will do them when i feel like it.. Im like no.. now.. ( Feeding the animals ) I just get so frustrated with this.. Maybe its cause I'm such a clean person.. I can leave my dishes in my room.. for the night .. Only of i like eat before bed.. thats it.. Can't just leave it laying around... She is just so lazy.. When i have stuff to do around the house.. espeacily when its like feeding the animals!! My room is pretty organized.. but hers.. Its a rats nest.. I hate it... GRRR.. Sorry just had to vent.. it bothers me!

yes it can be diagnosed even if you're not in a depressed mood at the moment

As Amanda says, depression can be diagnosed even when you're not feeling so down at the moment. The therapist will ask you questions about how you feel at different times, and other things about your appetite, sleeping, and so on.About you and your sister - I think it's just different personalities. Some people want everything clean and tidy; for others that's not important. I don't think one is right and the other is wrong - it's just different preferences, different tastes.

Yeah my sister thing.. I mean i dont let it interfear with out relationship.. just it annoys me.. tomorrow I will be talking to one of my parents ( which ever present best opertunity.. hopefully my dad ) .. If its my mom.. I'm going to tell her I'm making an apt. for the doctor ( Regular family physican will work for now right? ) I don't want to bring it up tonight.. they just got home from a 500 mile drive.. lol.. so there both pretty tired...