I'm pretty sure I have Bipolar Disorder. I have extreme mood swings, usually about one or two a day. It has been like that for over a year. Sometimes I'm extremely happy and excited for no reason and feel like i'm on top of the world (usually when I'm with my friends at school), other times I feel normal, and the majority of the time I feel so depressed that I think about suicide and cry myself to sleep. No one knows about this. Whenever I am depressed, I hide all my feelings. I only let myself cry when there is no one around. I listen to songs about how crap life is, because they are so true. I could go on and on about the things that I do and how i feel, and things that might have caused this, but it will take way to long to read this post.
I know I have a problem, but what can I do about it? I rarely tell my parents about things like this, it's just too embarrassing. They are extremely hard to talk to. We live across the road from our gp but he doesn't work there anymore... Some Asian chick does. I know this sounds racist but I don't want to talk to someone 'like that'. And I'm only 14 so it's not like I can go to the doctor without my parents anyway. What can I do?
And also, if I go to to the doctor what will they do? Will they send me to hospital and do tests? What tests will they do? Will I have to stay in hospital for a long time?
Sorry for wasting your time.