Alot of the times i get upset and just think to what the world would be like if i died... How sad would they get? Who would cry? I suppose its kind of a reflection of myself thinking theoretically on who and how many friends i actually have, i dunno why though, im not too self-consious about that stuff. Whenever im on ammusement park rides, like a farisswheel for example, i always envision the cart im in to break off and plumit to the ground and me die. Or when i see weird looking guy, i always envision him bustin' out a knife and just gutting me. I dunno whats the matter with me. I think to myself different ways/possibilites of my death and how it willc ome about.. will i be murdered? will i die of suicide? old age is never a possibility. Sometimes when i drive i get the urge to jus swirve off into oncomeing traffic for some reason, but i dont. I often think to myself, when im kinda mad towards someone, maybe i shld jus kill myself now... i wonder if they'd even feel sad. I have dreams also of what the world would be like w/o me. Its very saddening... Any help/suggestions/comments/diagnosis' for me?