Im 18 and I havent really felt as bad as I do now.I never get girlfriends, but it's only started bothering me recently. I have had around 4 girlfriends, but these have all finished with me after about 2 weeks at the most and tell me im ugly after they have finished with me.I know im ugly because in high school, every one used to say I was. It sounds stupid but recently I have even been brought to tears thinking about this.When i am at places, I always see people staring at me and some even laughing. I cant see how ugly I am when looking in the mirror, but I can on photographs and home movies.My best friend moved abroad last year, which is also making me feel depressed because I miss him.I'm not close to my family, I dont know why, I guess its just not who I am being ale to talk to my family.I only have about 4 people who I would call a friend. I only ever hang out with 2 of these people though.I would never dream of resorting to cutting myself though, but I just dont know what to do and how to make myself feel better. It's an awful feeling.Any help would be appreciated. P.s. The only way I know how to deal with it all is by drinking alcohol. I'd like to cope a different way though
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How to cope?
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In reply to: and tell me im ugly after they have finished with me. I think this is more of a spite thing hon...... In reply to:When i am at places, I always see people staring at me and some even laughing. I cant see how ugly I am when looking in the mirror, but I can on photographs and home movies. I don't really think they are all laughing and staring at you - you just feel they are cos its at the forefront of your mind.......as for home movies and photos I HATE having my pic taken, and i never have any good ones taken, and don't get me started on home movies LOL the phrase "does my bum REALLY look that big" is heard a lot from behind the sofa You may not have lots of friends, but, if you have a couple of close supportive friends, which is more than some people, then you are lucky...............and alcohol is NEVER an answer to problems, in fact it brings with it a whole different set of problems..............talking about how you feel helps a lot, either to friends, family, on forums like this one etc etc..........things won't be this bad forever.........keep smiling hugs
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Thanks for the reply. I really apprecate itI know I shouldnt let things like this bother me, but for some reason it does.I dont even think I could talk to any of my few friends about feeling depressed to be honest, they would just probably tell a bunch of lie's to try and make me feel better.
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If you need to talk please feel free to PM me im a good listener
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"When i am at places, I always see people staring at me and some even laughing. "
Like Angel said ... there's a 99,9% chance they're not laughing at you ... you just think they are because you're too worried about what other people think ... sub consciously you're looking for people to back you up and say you're ugly ... you probably don't realize you're doing this but you are ...
I say this because I used to be that way too and I still am at times ... but there used to be a time when I thought everybody was talking about me and laughing at me but truth was they weren't I was just telling myself this because I hated myself ...
Now I don't hate myself as much though ...
But what I'm saying is once you stop telling yourself you're the ugliest son of a bitch on the planet, you'll notice that you'll stop thinking that people are laughing at you.
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That's very true, InSearch.