Well just to start of, I am fifteen (male) just for reference. When I was about 11 or 12 me and one of my friends were looking on the internet, and saw some gay porn and we thought it was hilarious. But llater on, I seemed to enjoy the gay pron more and more, and the reason that I think that I am enjoying it so much is becuase I just seemed kinda fasinated by the fact that a dick is the only thing that you dont really know how big, cut or uncut, unlike other parts. You can see how big boobs are...girls private parts generally look the same, so I just became fascinated by male genitalia. SO then time goes on, and I meet some other guy when I was about 12 or 13, and one night hen I was spending the night over at his house, he approached me like he wanted to kiss me in a, not jokingly, but funny kinda way. Slowly we both started expirimenting with each other. It started with the kissing, real short pecks. Then we started playing the, "I'll be the guy and you be the girl" game, and we dry humped and jacked off and showed each other our dicks (his is really small though, it is literally probably no longer the 1" when erect...it literally looks like a babys' which I thought was kinda weird). Then we would tried making out, and we did a few times, and I LOVED it!!! :blush: :frowning: We both say that we are just doing it cause we want the pleasure, but every time, I become more and more attracted to gay things. I have even downloaded some gay porn. Sometimes I call him to see if he wants to stay the night at my house, for the sole purpose and goal of trying to get it started again, and even in hopes of having oral sex because we have never done that before. But I always get turned on when a girl leads me on. I have never gone farther than giving a gil a peck though. Am I bi-, gay, or has this ever happened to anybody else, and they turned out straight??? It just seems really weird. I have never told anybody or nothin. Just me and him know about it. Do I enjoy too much. Please give me some feedback!!!
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I've gotta be messed up
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i'd say ur bi.. u want to try out both ends of the spectrum, in fact u come off as if ur equally interested, instead of jus wanting to try it out. i'd say ur bi..
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I really enjoy, but I kinda dont want to enjoy it (even though I do) because I know it is not socially acceptable (at least for me coming from a christian background).
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It seems that you are bi, but I think it's difficult to say where it will end up. You're still exploring your sexuality, and this guy has been more available than girls.
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I think we are all sexually curious. Adolescence is a time of discovery and developing sexuality, we're curious about other guys and how we compare...physically, sexually, strengthwise, and in our overall development phases. Part of sexuality is discovering our body and how it works, responds and quite frankly enjoying the pleasure of it all. A number of guys (me included) experiment with other guys during this time. While those things you're doing are gay acts, it doesn't necessarily mean that you're gay. Some would say that since you enjoy it, you're at least bi. Do labels really matter? I don't think so. I did these things with a couple of friends during my teenage years, none of us were gay then and it stopped as we got older and none of us is gay now. Ultimately you'll have to decide what your orientation will be. For now, give yourself a break and don't worry about that part of this. Accept this as part of your developing sexuality and see where it leads. Be careful though not to put yourself in dangerous or unsafe situations. Take care of that equipment and enjoy it...but use it wisely. Feel free to keep chatting about this, I suspect that others will respond with their stories as well.
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In reply to: I really enjoy, but I kinda dont want to enjoy it (even though I do) because I know it is not socially acceptable (at least for me coming from a christian background). i knew it, i knew it, i MF'in knew it!after reading your opening post, before i read this second one, i KNEW you were upset about enjoying it because of religious pusposes!you are probably afraid your friends/family will be upset with youdude, its your life: if you enjoyed it, enjoy it!if not, dont to it againif your friends dont accept it, then they arent your friendsif your parents dont accept it, fuck em, its not their lifemy mothers wasnt too thrilled with my decision a few years ago when i came out and told hernow we arent just family, we are best of friends she thinks its kinda funny having a daughter with a dick LMFAOhey, i am gay to heart, but i find boobs on chicks fascinatingim certainly not bisexual, but i still think its funny that 5 lb's of fat can look good if a nipple is added LOLdont fret my friend, youre still young and you have lots more time yet to figure everything out
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In reply to: dude, its your life: if you enjoyed it, enjoy it!if not, dont to it againif your friends dont accept it, then they arent your friendsif your parents dont accept it, fuck em, its not their life Amen to that...Im straight but i think that if you like something that much just do it!! I hate when people have to conform to the socially accepted mold... it bugs the hell out of me my advice... do whats right for you not ur parents or religion or friends. its YOUR life after all
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In reply to:Am I bi-, gay, or has this ever happened to anybody else, and they turned out straight??? Like the others said, it sounds like you're Bi-sexual( yes labels are bad). I myself am Bi, i spent most of my early teens masturbating to gay porn but found I was still sexually attracted to girls, when I was 15ish I had both a boyfriend and a girlfriend, was sexually active with both and found something special about both. At the moment I am only sexually active with my girl-friend, but I have a wide array of gay porn on my computer!( which she knows about). I come from a christian family aswell, my mother is leniant, and my father.. well he was raised in a traditional japanese family, where homosexuality is a big no-no. My family with the exception of my father have accepted the fact I'm Bi and have had sex with guys. =) he's just happy I have sex with girls too. In the end be happy with whatever you feel, no need for any guilt, if the people around you cannot accept it, don't hide it, but don't flaunt it, one day they'll have to enter reality and accept it to some measure."We're here, and we're queer"
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dude, its your life: if you enjoyed it, enjoy it!if not, dont to it againif your friends dont accept it, then they arent your friendsif your parents dont accept it, fuck em, its not their lifesaid it best..
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In reply to:if your parents dont accept it, fuck em Incestual rape is not a satisfactory argument against bigotry