Judgement

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I know everyone gets judged, especially at my age (18) Most people get judged till their 20's blah blah blah. It's usually unfair and based on bullshit. And that's fine.what bothers me is the level of judgement I get, for no particular reason. And how little my friends get.I know a girl who well she's 16 now, started at 14. Sluts around dresses like a whore, smokes, drinks parties, I don't think she actually has full out intercourse, often, but she does other shit. But barely anything gets said about it. an when someone does, it always ends, but that's why we love her, or good ol generic girl X she's got her issues, but we love her anyway.And I know people younger and worse, Older and innocent, one of my friends, I don't know how he avoids getting picked on, he's rather nerdy, he never combs or cuts his hair so it's a frow, and he hasn't cut his beard once since he started to get it, so it's a frow too. He kinda looks like a hairball, not being mean, he literally does. but nobody notices or says anything about it, just that he can be a douche sometimes.Me, I don't drink, smoke. I go to parties, but I keep to my self and don't do a lot. I do partake in social events. I dress, a bit darker than most of my friends, but not really out of the ordinary.I get called whorish, and druggy and a creeper and all kinds of shit. Stuff that my friends actually are, and NEVER called out on. but regardless of what I do or change, people are constantly judging me, and not passing just a little judgement, I get treated shitty, publicly even.People calling me dirty and disgusting, despite being one of the only people around the town who washes their hands after the bathroom, and constantly has bottles of hand sanitizer on him.But not only am I being falsely accused. I'm being treated like shit for doing shit I'm not doing, that all my other friend actually DO who are loved and cared about by everyone =/

Two factors:1. Given the same treatment, we tend to think we are treated worse than others, because the negative things hurt us a lot more and we notice them a lot more when directed at us rather than at others. On a one-to-one basis, when someone says something negative to us we feel it is a hurtful attack; when we say something negative to someone else we feel it is harmless banter.2. Some people just seem to give off a personality that makes everyone love them, while others give off a personality that makes them a victim. It's not easy to put a finger on what makes the difference, though I am sure that looks are often part of it. It's certainly not fair.

When you ascribe to a label you get the stigma's that come along with it.Clearly it has something to do with the way you dress, you said only slightly darker, but it sounds like that isn't the case at all.If you don't like the judgement, either learn to live with it and surround yourself with people like you, or who accept you. Or just stop ascribing yourself to the label you're ascribing yourself to.

It's not really how I dress. what I mean by darker is. example.A lot of my friends wear black shirts with band shit. and for some unexplained reason. Purple pants usually. though some stil with dark blue.While I usually wear Black jeans and a dark T-shirt, usually with skulls/crosses. which most people admire my clothes. so I really don't think that's it.The only person ever to find my clothing bad/apparently offensive, was my dad's 50 year old ex wife who broke up with him, because his grades were higher in college, and she felt insulted because she was from the city and he was from the country.