O where do i begin. Ive been away for a while but now im back. Yea i still have the big issues with anxiety and its really starting to effect my everyday life. I have issues with this girl im crazy about. Its stupid shit i probably shouldnt worry about but i do. But last night i was at work and a guy threatened to hit me. So i called the cops and got real pissed so they told me to go in the back to cool down. But i have this horrible rage, i was shaking because i wanted to jump over that counter and beat the shit outa him. So i went and punched the box in the back and everything just got the best of me and i started crying. i dont know why but i did. it was like i had a breakdown. Everyone at work saw it and they probably think im a little bitch now. But iono i couldnt help it. It didnt even have to do with the guy it was just everything was piling up inside and it had no where to go. I just hate everything about me. My anxiety, im losing my friggin hair and im only 20. I got stress as it is at work and to top it off everyone treats me like shit. because im that nice guy people take advantage of that. They com eto me when its convenient for them, but when i have a problem no one answers their phone. Its like my friends arent always friends, my own cousins sometimes piss me off. Adn this girl is treating me like shit lately. Its like she cant take that im nice to her? i dont get it. And to top it off she works with me and shes gonna find out what happened and ill look like a total dork. I just hate everything iono what to do nemore. And because im the guy who doesnt drink or smoke or party its like i cant have friends. Everyone wants to do that, i only have one good friend who is like me, btu i cant rely on him all the time. People also dont liek to call me back or answer my calls. Its so annoying. Ahhh i hate it. I hate being nice andt he way i am because i just get shit on. Sorry guys i had to vent, either that or i would go to sleep and wake up a week latr. i just dont know
I hate myself
Hey dude, sorry for your troubles. I kinda know what you're going through as I suffer from anxiety myself.
Have you tried talking with someone? like a counsellor? They really can help. In fact, writing things down - things that are on your mind, can help too.
I don't really know what to suggest for your lifestyle or workplace for that matter. If things really are upsetting you so much, that your job is becoming difficult then I would advise you to take up some activity in your spare time to keep your mind off things. I find, that if something horrible has happened, I try to do something however small it may seem.
There will be better advice from other people yet to come, so don't worry. Hang in there!
you're a good lad, you should always remember that!
<b>and there was light</b>
Lol you hate yourself? You have no idea..
Actually you're the one who has no idea.
Just because you think you're going through worse stuff than ata doesn't mean he doesn't have it bad. So just stfu k?
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Hey honey welcome back, missed ya hugs
As for your post, its hard to know what to say, except things never stay the same..........things will get better, but you can make a huge difference if you tackle each problem one at a time.
The hair thing for instance, if you're losing it, get it all shaved off i had been trying to get a friend to do the same thing, cos he was losing his hair and it was driving him crazy, so, for charity, i persuaded him to shave it off and now he looks sooo good, and a lot younger too LOL
Life is hard sometimes...........but hon if you need to unload, PM me big hugs </font color>
Get a taste of Old Time Religion..........lick a witch grin<br />
Find some violent video games to play for a hobby. Attend church more regularly. Practice being in a man when it comes to anything your anxiety is effected by. Girls will come to you, it doesn't matter what anyone thinks of you, and it is far more manly to repress and control anger than it is to give into it and hit even an inanimate object.
Oni estas ĉiom ĝi volo benzono.
<b>One is all it will take.</b>