...I guess this'll suffice.
Anyway, I am not in a dilemma or anything, just sort of down. Not even depressed, I guess I'm just hard on myself or whatever. Well, today my dad sent me out with $60 to go get two pizzas, put $20 into my car, and then go buy new windshield wipers. I did all of them, and the amount of change I was supposed to have was $7.32. I came home, put the change on the counter, and hung out for a bit. When my dad came home and counted the change, there was only $2.32, leaving a five dollar bill missing. I felt sort of bad because for one my dad sent me out with money and now it's gone, but I know I didn't take it. My dad, however, assumed that someone in the house must've stolen it. I think, though, that I was shortchanged down at the pizza shop, which is my last stop. I know it's my fault for not checking the change properly, but my dad gave me that impression like he wanted to kill me, all over five dollars. Plus he made it seem like one of us stole it and was saying how he gives us allowance so we shouldn't (we as in my brothers and I) need to steal, blah blah. I guess it isn't a big deal, I mean it's only five bucks and was sort of an accident (unless the cashier meant to pocket five dollars), but I can't help but feeling like I've suddenly shown this huge fault that makes me not so great of a person.
I don't know how else to put it. And it's not just this incident, but anything for that matter. I don't see myself as depressed, because it's not like I hate myself or even feel gloomy or any of that crap; it's just that I feel like my responsibility's gone down, the way my parents percieve me has gone down, and overall I've gone down in regards to being a responsible person and whatnot. sigh This is ridiculous...
Not sure where else to post...
...I guess this'll suffice.
you have a slightly paranoid father, 5 dollars isn't much. GET A JOB AND PAY IT BACK, if you are old enough to have a car, you are old enough to pay the 5 back!
I guess that is where I get my paranoia from. And no, I do not have a job, nor do I want one. I could certainly pay him back, and if it were just about the money, I'd gladly do so. However, I know for a fact that if I give him the money from my own pocket or even pretend that I found it, he won't be like, "Oh, thanks." Instead he'll make up some shit about how he scared me because I stole the money and I'm just giving it back.
that is post-paranoia...just tell him that "if [you] gave it back, why would you need to steel it?"
I guess that is a fitting way to explain it. In any case, I must admit that of all things, I am very paranoid. I'm quite afraid of what people might think of me (even though I say I don't care), and I'm afraid I might sound stupid/come off as an idiot, or just ruin things completely. I don't know a damn way to fix it either.
approach him, you have two choices. be either SERIOUS or a WUSS.
Serious: "Here's the 5 bucks that I owe ya" (at this point, if he says anything other than a "hey thanks" or something to that effect, continue) "If you think I took it, than you are mistaken because I have no need for the money if I willingly pay you back" (do not shout, just make it firm, like he's a dog)
Wuss: "here is that money i took, please don't hurt me" (remember to cry)
You are still responsable, you went for the pizza, and brought back the change, your mistake was that you might not have checked it..............everyone makes mistakes hon, stop being so hard on yourself.
As for the missing 5 are you sure someone didn't take it, hey im just throwing that out there.............kids do stupid things, and maybe one of your siblings thought no one would notice LOL
As for your dads reaction, well as a mum i can understand a little, as stealing and lying would be something i wouldn't not and will not tolerate in my house, but i think maybe your dad carried it on a bit too far LOL be honest, admit you think you made a mistake, and maybe you were shortchanged............that is the most responsable thing to do, whether he beleives you or not, you have told the truth and there is nothing else you can do. </font color>
Get a taste of Old Time Religion..........lick a witch grin<br />
Give him back the 5 and if you explain what happened, and you don't have a history of lying, and your father still insists that the money was stolen, then he is not paranoid, he is a psychopath, and there's unfortunately not much you can do about it.
Is your mom around?
<i>Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.</i> -- MLK