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    droppydees

    Hey guys I went to see my psychiatrist today We talked about how depression can cause you to lose brain mass and that we need to find a way to increase mine. Essentially he said the because you don't use the parts of your brain that allow you to memorize and to concentrate because of depression, essentially those parts of the brain are going to shrink. This is natural selection. Your body keeps the parts it needs and disposes of the parts it doesn't.So he put me on Vyvanse because I am easily distracted and put me on Wellbutrin to regulate my mood.The problem is I need to get some health insurance. I'm not on any right now because I am not in school and I am financially suspended so I'd have to get a job. But I'm afraid I'd just be working to take my medicine. So I'm stuck in a big rut, but that's the progress I've made.I've got some answers and I am extremely happy my doctor is able to tell me what is going on inside my head. Any help with my situation would be appreciated.

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    The sexual assault was probably the breaking point.

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    Originally Posted By: NnyI couldn't help but, to get on a tanget for this one. Perhaps because it highlights our need as humans to have some sort of superiority.. Shame so many of us can only raise ourself by lowering others so in truth we really don't raise ourself at all.. merely look down upon others from imaginary pedistools. A predominantly black church posted a sign that read:DON'T MAXIMIZE THE FAULTS OF OTHERS TO MINIMIZE YOUR OWN.Enough said?

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    droppydees

    Can you give me examples of some of your issues/problems?

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    droppydees

    So here's the story. I have been sort of a problem child in the sense that my parents have had problems getting me out of the house, or from their perspective, I've had trouble getting my life together. The reason I've had so much trouble is because I've been struggling to cope with a pretty extreme case of mental illness that involves heavy anxiety, obsessing over misc. things, and anger problems and social awkwardness.Technically the quacks consider me to be Bipolar with attention problems and anxiety and anger problems. So anyways, I've tried to explain to my parents time and time again what it is like. They won't listen. They hear my voice but it's like it doesn't register in their heads that I, their son, am psychotic.In the past year I have made great strides in coping with my illness. I have a much healthier mindset but my life is so unbalanced it isn't funny.The reason I bring up my parents is because I have trouble stepping outside of my room when I know my mom is going to act strangely towards me. And when I mean strange, I mean she gets frustrated with me and she will get angry at me. When I call her out on it, she's like "that's not angry" or "you haven't seen me angry."I just can't take it. I have nowhere to go. This is my home. I am trying to get into a vocational rehab program that will pay for my school so I can maybe stay at a dorm and get out.My friend says I should face this problem and fix my home life before I move out. I would like to but I have little faith that any of my advances will end in progression. My parents are extremely stubborn. They think because they have power over me that they can treat me however they want to. I have been to the point where I've contemplated suicide because of how they treat me. I fucking hate it here.People will say that I am being a bitch and that what I live through is nothing compared to that of [insert reference to a story of someone who had it harder than me].That doesn't change anything for me. Everyday I am affected by how my parents treat me. My psychologist says they put so much pressure on me that I am putting a ton of pressure on myself to the point where I am obsessing over ways to get out and be independent so I never have to see them again.I am going to ask my mom to go to my psychologist with me so she can't escape the responsibility of how she treats me and she can actually own up to it. I don't know what else to do.Help.

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    I can gladly say that I have escaped my depression, and like many of you, mine was really, really bad. I met a behavior analyst and I listened to what she had to say. I also listened to what my psychiatrist had to say. A few weeks later, after taking some medicine, I felt tremendously better, but I could still feel the depression. Six months after I was prescribed the medicine, I stopped taking it. It made me feel..... natural. The medicine did something for me I couldn't have done for myself. But I didn't need it any longer. I than began to reshape my environment. I listened to happier, more relaxing music. I stopped socializing with people who didn't agree with my mind, and started hanging out with people who understood what I was saying and could contribute to the I enjoyed having which were more philosophical. The results? My psychologist told me I had almost no anxiety left and my depression is practically gone. He said I have a few more anxiety issues but I will soon resolve them. He told me to be aware as certain things will trigger that depression again. And he was right. As I find those things that do trigger my depression, I walk away and reset my mind. It feels so good. I fought against this for so long.

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    Let me just explain what the hell I am going through. Have you ever seen The Matrix? If you have, then you will understand what I am about to say. I feel like I am slowly being pulled out of The Matrix (a fake reality) and starting to realize the truth. I was diagnosed with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) and Manic Depression along with Attention Deficit Disorder. For a long time I took Zoloft, Abilify, and Focalin. I decided to quit taking the medicine. Since then, I feel much better. But back to what I was saying. It's really hard to see the whole picture since you have no idea how people perceive you, but I always felt that people viewed me significantly different from most people and consequently treated me differently. I used to think it was me. I thought I was doing something wrong. This was the foundation of my anxiety. I finally realized that nothing is wrong with me. If anything, something is wrong with the people who treat me differently than everyone else. I'm starting to realize the truth. A lot of people are mean, apathetic, and selfish. I consider myself to be selfless, caring, and nice, but cynical because the former people surround me. I found that is very rare to find someone who is similar to me. That's when I stop being cynical, and start opening up to those who I feel actually have a soul and heart left. I wish I could just go to a land where everyone is like this. Jamaica, perhaps? I feel like the environment around me is corrupting my heart and soul and I am fighting it. My goal is to defeat the corruption that has already happened to me, and I feel like I am doing a good job of that. I'm slowly eliminating all of the negative influences in my life (soulless music, heartless people, drugs) and inserting positive influences into my life (soulful music, caring individuals).With that said, I really want to influence some of my corrupted friends to fight this corruption. I know it will be hard without coming off as narcissistic to them. What should I do?

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    To make a long story short, I ended up fucking this girl last night. I say fucking because that is exactly what it was. Meaningless sex. Just mutual pleasure. I'm fairly new to sex. I've only had it about 3 times - this account being the third. So she basically kept telling me to fuck her. I'm embarrassed to say, that I can't stay in the hole. Now, she was a fairly big girl. Does that have anything to do with it, or was I just not hard enough or was my penis not long enough? It's pretty wide I've been told. I think it is about 5 inches long. Is that average or below average? What should I do if its not hard enough?

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    droppydees

    I just sort of want to explore my sexual side. What is so wrong with that? I don't want a girlfriend. I just really would like to have some mutual fun with someone else.

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    All I want is a girl I can have some fun with for now. Nothing serious. Just sex. What should I do? I'm pretty confident when it comes to girls. I usually flirt a little bit and try to get their number and see if they want come over and hang out but I'm not sure what I should do after they are here. How should I make my move?

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