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    freezesmyblood

    I've been going to a therapist but I still don't know what's up with it. I can't figure it out, it's like always there. Recently I've been getting better though, I got a loving girlfriend and I think things are beginning to work out. I may never figure out why I do this, but as long as it stops I'm fine with that

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    freezesmyblood

    So recently, I've been slowly getting out of this extreme depressed/suicidal period of like three years, and I've been noticing that I kind of enjoy making myself depressed. It's hard to explain because I seriously hate being sad, but its like a game to make myself cry. I just think of the worst, most depressing stuff I can. I think the best comparison can be to pills I've taken for the high, especially vyvanse. With vyvanse, or ritalin, once I begin coming down I like scramble to get myself back into that high feeling. I do the same with depression. It's like as soon as I start feeling better, I scramble and make all the worst stuff I can think of go through my head. The first time I thought I must kind of enjoy it was this one day when I was smoking weed. Usually, weed kills the depression immediately by letting me think of all the awesome stuff with life, but this one time I just started going after myself like I do when I'm sober. I realized that I was doing it because it was like a game. I just really want to know why I do this to myself, I don't know if its some kind of mental disorder or something like that. I just feel like if I know why I'm doing it I'll be able to stop, yah know?

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    freezesmyblood

    So for years I've had these little bumps all over my balls and up a little bit of my shaft. I am not a virgin now, but I don't think it's a disease or anything because I had them before I got laid. I just don't know how to get rid of them, and I have a girlfriend now who I really love and I don't want it to mess stuff up with her. I don't know if any of yall know what it is or how to get rid of them, but it'd be very helpful

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