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    luvinthesand526

    hey thanks for all the replies i have a doctors appointment in a week or so. right now i am going down in the chemo now that i have been told i am in remission. so i am taking less plaquinil (to raise the blood counts) but who knows.... should i call my doctor now or wait?

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    at school i hit my leg on a shelf under a computer desk. and although i dont bruise easily i did. it has been two months and it still hasn't gone away. i heard that if a bruise doesnt go away your (white?) blood cells could be low. this is impossible because i am taking medications to raise it. i am also on the pill form of chemo for lupus. i dont know, what do you guys think?

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    so recently i was misdiagnosed with skintags. turns out it was hpv. i got my pap results back and was told that i have abnormal cells. ontop of that since my immune system is depleted from chemo for lupus they spread worse. i came into the office in march was told they were skin tags basically she poked me and sent me on my way. so then i knew she was wrong, returned when i got back from college and and started treatment two weeks ago (finally) since my immune system is tankin out on me they have spread far worse than they should have. so i have to be put to sleep and they are going to use a special knife to get them off. has anyone ever had this done? if so please tell me in detail how it went. what was it like afterwords? thanks, i appreciate it. also do you think i should sue if i do have precancerous cells or just plain for this misdiagnosis?

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    yeah i had a gyno tell me i had skin tags and then they spread and now i have hpv and because of her shitty diagnosis i have to have surgery the end of june. they are putting me out and everything. not to scare you but go to the docs please.

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    yeah actually the problem was taken care of-they were fired.

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    luvinthesand526

    Please please please don’t go to tanning beds. I thought it would be SO cool for me to look tan since I am Irish and all I have the freckles and pale skin. I could NEVER get that bronze glow I wanted. I would go in for 7 mins and come out looking like a lobster! I thought I also needed to diet...all 135 pounds of me (I am now 145 ugh!) so I would do that and tan and all the sudden my health went down the tubes. It was awful after a fairly bad burn I started feeling achy then it got worse. I was so tired I could only be up for an hour to three hours before I was completely tanked. One day I fell down the steps when my hip or knee locked up. That was my last straw and went to the doctors then. They proceeded to run lots of tests and after visiting a college I got the call on my cell from my doctor. Bad news.... I have lupus. I had to go to a specialist for this but no one would take a 17 year old because I wasn’t an adult...until my doc now. He sent me pretty early off to get a kidney biopsy. I would have been ready if they would have told me but they didn’t. So I went into the CAT scan room thinking I was just going to get a CAT scan and go back out with my parents. Oh nooo they had to inject something into my IV to relax me I was freaking out. I had to be awake for the entire thing too…it sucked. That biopsy determined that I had systemic lupus or SLE. Meaning it affects more than just skin, muscles, and joints, blood. It was in my kidneys and that meant I had to go on chemo. I had to choose at 17 whether I wanted to have kids or not based on the form of chemo I chose. The choice was obvious I wanted kids so I chose a new break through drug called cellcept. I missed 57 days of school last year...my senior year at that. I managed somehow to get on honor roll three out of the four marking periods. But to this day I still struggle. I get around okay don’t get me wrong but there are days where I am achy as hell. I keep my head up...but this wouldn’t have happened if I had accepted my body as it was. Because of medications I gained 15 pounds. I lost 5 so far and hopefully a little more but no more is 120 a weight consideration. Anyways back to the tanning thing. I am allergic to the sun now and just last summer we went on a Royal Caribbean cruise for my graduation present and I had to wear spf 70!! It burned my skin and was awful! So if you want that just got back from vacation bronze glow go for L’Oreal sublime bronze. It works wonders. When I want to wear a light color I just use the gel and when I have a darker one on and want some instant color I use the one with the built in bronzer. I couldn’t be happier with this product and everyone asks where I went tanning or if I just got back from vacation. But I just smile and say sublime bronze I use the deep one because it lasts longer. To the top comments about looking 60 and not tanning helps fight signs of aging anyways! You should always wear SPF 15 even if you are just going for a little walk. I’m not telling my story to you all to freak you out. It’s probably a one in a million chance that this would happen to you. But remember I was an athlete, in the best shape of my life, very healthy eater the only thing I did wrong was tan. One slip and I am on life saving medications for the rest of my life and will never run half the distance I ran before, never jump as high, never lift as much and certainly never soak up as much sun as I did before. Just be careful with your body because it’s only until something life threatening happened that I realized that I love my life, my body and if I don’t get to that desired weight who the hell cares. I got into my top college and just finished my first year with a 3.0 my first semester. (I haven’t got my second back yet) The biggest thing I learned through this all is to be grateful for my life and my health, even if it has its lows I still emotionally have my highs and that’s what keeps my chin up and a smile on my face in the end.

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    well, yeah I could have. But...my school assured me they had it under control. I am home now from college and the matter is completely out of my hands. The cafeteria is closed for the summer...rumor has it they aren't coming back next year. But if they do I will just go to someone higher. I wont live at the dorms next semester because of it. Towards the end I missed a lot of class and I can't afford that with trying to maintain a certain grade point average for my scholarships. This whole situtation is very frusterating and I feel as though I didn't get my point across even though I talked to the head manager of the cafeteria, one of the other managers, before that called the health department and before that even talked to my school. What do I have to do next?! I raised enough hell and I let my voice be heard. I told the health department that we were preparing to go into finals and thats why people wouldn't be calling and why should they I talked to 20-ish people about it and they all recalled getting sick. Isn't that enough or do my kidneys have to fail from being so damned sick? I have SLE Lupus and it effects my kidneys. After I would get sick they would absolutely throb....I was losing sleep which means more pain and less focus in class. I certainly wasn't eating a balanced meal so in all the cafeteria did nothing but deteriorate my health and that of my peers. Whats worse is that everyone I talked to knows this and nothing was done!!! grrr...

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    haha actually first time i got off was when i was 15 by a 17 year old so I dont think that age really has a play in it. I am 19 now...and I have had sex with 7. I guess a guy thinks that the easiest route is to do a little of everything before sex. Like oh if I just rub, finger and do a little oral she will let me go in. Well I got news for those guys my sex life was much better without sex. I haven't even got that close to orgasming from sex either. I know I am fully capable but maybe I'm with all the wrong guys?

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    First time I masted....I was on the phone with this real big horn dog from my school. I was 13 or 14 and wanted to quit being made fun of for being a "prude" I know its so stupid but I was young and have learned a lot since then. So the guy gets to talkin about how he wanted to hear me finger myself. I had never ventured there and got a rush in doing so. I explored so far in that I actually popped my own cherry!!! I was sorta embarassed. And it was st range feeling almost what felt like poking through cobwebs in there. But my first real orgasm came after my ex had got me off from oral. I decided to try to mimick the way his tounge felt on my clit and after a long time I got off. Now I can get off in 8 mins on my own though. Good stuff, great stress reliever too!!

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    Yeah, I'm sure lots of girls mast and dont tell. But really I have been doing it since I was 13 or 14. However....I didn't feel a real orgasm until 10th grade. Then everything changed....My first time I shuttered, my legs spazzed i felt it from my head to my toes. Or should I say the opposite I felt it in my legs first. But after that it was bliss. I haven't been able to get off from straight oral since him and I am 19. Are there no decent guys out there?!!! But even when a guy is just rubbin my clit it feels like its too intense. However, when I do it intense to see if I can take it, its fine. Whats going on? I am at a state of utter relaxation when they are doing it and unlike most girls I like my smell and taste. Maybe its just shitty foreplay or something. But I still dont understand why I shutter extra when a guy does the same thing to me that I do to myself. Whats going on it comes to a point where I am almost embarassed to let my body tremble.

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