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    mandapanda41887

    For the most part, generally speaking… The members of this website are probably not doctors. So although it is comforting to go to somebody who is not a doctor to ask their opinion first… The only real way to find out if you have any kind of STD is to go to a doctor and get tested for it. I know in the state of Connecticut they have a organization called planned parenthood. And they do everything from regular gynecology check ups two abortions to STD testing. most STDs are curable, if not, at least treatable… And the general public most STDs are curable, if not, at least treatable… And the general public often makes STDs to sound Way worse than they actually are.

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    mandapanda41887

    @readytogo thank you for your response. And I understand both sides of what you're saying. And maybe by me using the word "hacking quote was the wrong term. I just googled some general information that I knew about him… And I seen what popped up… And that's when I started to figure everything out, and put all the pieces of the puzzle together. I've never done that with any of my other boyfriends. I was in a long-term relationship prior to being in this one, we were best of friends… And had no secrets… And I never felt the need to ever question anything that he did. Just I felt like there was something going on that this one wasn't telling me about. there's much more to the story. I just tried to put it in a nutshell as best as possible

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    mandapanda41887

    I often have similar feelings and didn't know if anyone else felt that way. I'm a female tho. I love being a female. I'm openly bisexual. Been with men and women, prefer men and relationships with men. I enjoy having sex with men. But when I'm alone I often find myself fantasizing about being a particular male, what turns that particular man on and take my dildo and put it on my clit. N now it looks like I have a cock, so instead of using my dildo by fucking myself it looks like I'm jerking off. N whatever that guy I'm thinking of would do to get off, I do it until I get off too. But that's where it ends. I don't ever wanna fuck him as a guy. I don't wanna be a guy. It's weird.

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    mandapanda41887

    Yes! It's actually a really big turn on. Even feeling it get hard inside me turns me on too

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    mandapanda41887

    So my boyfriend and i been together for about 2 years now. when i first met him and i went to his house, i walked into his spare bedroom and found myself looking a thousands of pairs of socks. all different kinds and colors...everywhere. i also notice that he has another room full of panties. he had the panties hanging up around the house like decorations. i laughed and thought maybe there was some reasonable explination behind it. he told me that he had a friend that worked at a sporting goods store and since his friend knew that my boyfriend hated throwing away perfectly good stuff, his friend would give me all these socks when they would clean out the back room. the first week we met he asked me for a pair of my panties. i also thought it was cute and thought he wanted to be reminded of me when i wasnt around. he always told me that i had cute feel and he wanted to "eat my toes", i thought i was just an expression of speach. the first thing he ever gave me was a pair of sneakers. as time went on i continued to get alot more sneakers...cool...what girl doesnt like shoes. During sex sometimes i could just tell that something was off, all i want is to make him happy...so i would ask him, "what do u like...what turns u on," he would just tell me that i turn him on and to keep doing what i was doing. as we became comfortable with eachother, he would tell me things like "while ur at work tonight steal a girls panties out of her locker". again, i thought it was just something he was saying to be kinky. i had guys with panty fetishes before, so i thought maybe this was some form of that. but after we were dating for about 6 months, for some reason i decided to google his user name, and i was completely amazed at what i found. i wasnt amazed because it freaked me out, i was more less shocked because that was the way i had to find out what he was really into. i found out he was a member off all kinds of shoe and sock fetish and torture sites and found videos of him burning sock and panties and cutting them up. i could tell thats what he really liked just by the way he was handeling the panties and socks in the videos. he did it with such care and so gentley. i confronted him a few days later. i didnt want to confront him because i was mad, i was intriged and wanted to know why? and when? and what caused it...he told me a little bit but this just made me want to know more. im pretty good at hacking anad that sort of stuff, so i ended up getting into a few more sites and his email blah blah blah. now i find out that hes spending all kinds of money on buying girls socks and sneakers and panties...then giving them to me to wear. i used to assume he got them from his "friend at the sporting goods store" or in one of the vacent apartments he rents out. but now i found out where they are really from. in this process he also has very lengthy conversations with these girls. again thats not what bothers me. from then on, i try to do more of what he likes. i wear my socks and leave them on his pillow. i put my feet in his face when we have sex. i usually do that once i notice that he cant stay hard for more then a few seconds. i do that and he gets off right away. im upset he didnt tell me sooner and im upset he keeps all the other stuff a secret too. i didnt tell him that i know alot of the stuff i know. When im sleeping sometimes he doesnt want to wake me up to have sex, so when i wake up, he tells me that he jerked off in my sock or slipper or something. again, this kind of peaks my interest...i want to watch him do this. i want to know how often he does this when im not around. i have to imagion that its alot, because hes addicted to sex...or socks..or feet...or whatever it is...and i dont get it because certain times hell be open with me about certain things...that he fucked my sock while i was asleep, that he ordered me (well more less for his pleaseure) a shipment of some chicks panties (and he only admitts that sometimes)...while we are having sex we'll play tug of war with my socks...but other times he really secretive about it. and if i confront him about anything, or mention that i found something out or came accross something online he gets really defensive and tell me to stop snopping in his stuff. One morning i found a pair of my socks in the hamper (his favorite kind of socks) i just did laundry the night before and i knew i didnt wear those socks, so i was wondering why they were in the hamper. Then it clicked, so i took them out n felt them...of course the tip of the toe of one of the socks was wet...mmm hmm, when he came back in the room he noticed that i had moved the socks and he started asking me questions about why i touched them....like hello...shouldnt i be the one asking questions here. anyways...by now he should deffinately realize that im not only cool with what he likes, but it kind of turns me on becasue i notice how extremely turned on he gets. Can someone please help me understand all this since hes very vague about it all?!? the whole fetish thing in general with the socks and feet and panties. and what else can i do to not only turn him on more but also show him that its ok to be open about it with me, so he can stop being so secretive about it. and since its become clear to me that he really really needs either my feet or socks involoved in order to get off...does he even really need me? would he rather just wrap my sock around his cock n do it himself? does he have sex with me just because he thinks he needs to do it so i get off? since hes a sex addict/sock, shoe, sneaker and panty addcit does he do it all by himself alot when im not around? whats up with the torture and destroying of these things too? im very interested in it all, im not grossed out by it or turned off by it, im just really curious and he gets all flustered and defensive when i try to bring it up other then when were having sex...just seeing and feeling how hard his cock gets when my feet are against his face turns me on so much. But he just won't talk to me about it. So now I'm turned on by something I don't understand...

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