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    monkey

    Ok, I'm a 24 year old gay guy who keeps going from obsession to obsession. I've never had a real relationship, and the only real relationship I had was when I was 18 and I was cheated on 13 times in 3 months. It kinda screwed me up.

    A short explaination - I've been on antidepressants since I was 18, I'm gay, I don't have many friends, I'm quite antisocial, and im very shy, and very critical of myself, mostly due to my weight - I'm 16 stone. But I am very honest and I help out my friends more than I help myself.

    Since then I've tried to help myself, its taken me years to figure out what's wrong with myself. Finally I've kinda got somewhere, but at the moment I am still obsessed with someone I shouldn't be.

    I'm scared of being cheated on/burned again and forge attractions to unattainable people so I don’t have to be in a relationship.

    I don’t know how to deal with it. I’m too kind to people, I’m too honest, and I fall for people I shouldn’t. And that’s why I don’t have anyone.

    If I'm in a relationship, I'm either obsessed or not interested at all. Its either one or the other, and I know right away.

    I've tried antidepressants, I've tried councilling. I don't know what to do anymore.

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