The strangest thing is happening to me right now and I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm in a dream I can't wake up from.
Right before I left for Christmas vacation I started to feel attracted to my best friend / roommate (also a guy). I didn't understand it, and still don't. I'm in my early twenties and I've only ever thought of and liked girls.
I went on vacation and I started to do that thing that only those who have feelings for someone do, I couldn't get him out of my mind. Constantly thinking about him.
He just recently entered a relationship with a girl, but this isn't the first time I've seen him date. It can't be jealousy because I'm strangely happy for him, but it's killing me to watch this at the same time.
I've been having mild panic attacks and not sleeping this past week because this whole situation is freaking me out. Everything was so different just a couple weeks ago. But now I don't really see girls in the same light, but at the same time, I'm not eyeballing other guys either. Just him.
I have no idea where this infatuation came from. He's my best friend and roommate, and even though he's done and said some questionable things regarding his sexuality he's more than likely straight.
We are extremely close friends, I've never connected with another person (even on a friendship level) like this. I have nothing but the best times when I'm with him. I don't want to lose my best friend over this.
I don't know what to do. If it seems like I'm leaving something out, please tell me and I'll fill you in. I just need help with this. Where do I go from here?
Made a second username to see if that would fix the problem. Every time I post a thread there's no text in the body, it's just blank. I keep deleting the threads to keep from spamming the boards.
I've also tried in another web browser. Why isn't anything showing up when I post (besides this thread)?