I'm in a really tight spot in my life... My whole life I've been by myself and very lonely. Up untill recently when I have found a girl that I love and she loves me equally as much. We've had a perfect relationship for the past 3 months. But lately my friends have been real assholes...They've been making fun of me for my musical interest [emo], the way I dress, the eyeliner that I wear [yes I am a boy], and they've been making fun of the scars on my wrists because I have been cutting...They don't even bother to take the time to stop and ask whats wrong...The friends I did have either betrayed me or backstabbed me for something/someone else...I'm very poor and I don't have a father or even a father figure in my life. My mother doesn't care much for me anymore...One of my best friends in my life now is making fun of me and my girlfriend over stupid shit that doesn't even matter...It's difficult to write this because I can't even think about it straight...All my friends have been talking behind my back and want me to break up with my girlfriend (which is the only thing that matters in my life now...) I think I want to end my life...My girlfriend isn't allowed to date and recently she has been thinking about telling her parents about us...I'm afraid that she is going to break up with me soon...I really don't want her to go...She's the only thing I have left in my life...I'm afraid I'm going to kill myself when she breaks up with me...My grades at school are not so good...The future doesn't look so bright for me...I can't afford to go to a college...I think it's time to die if I don't have anything going for me, even my friends who won't support my desicions like any normal friend would...What should I do? I'm to depressed to go to school or even get out of bed...Someone please help me...
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I need help...
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I know exactly how you feel man. Being emo myself I know what youre going through and my advise is, sure man, you love her, she loves you. I doubt she'll break up with you man, and if she does, this is just one part of youre life, youre young, you may find a women you love x10 more. And about the friends part, no worries, if they're like that they dont deserve you as a friend, my advise is, make friends with other people that haev youre musicial taste, not to be steretypical but it seems most people who listen to our genre of music are going through tough times. Go to some concerts, haev a good time, meet some new friends and you'll find that in no time you'll be as happy as ever man.
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Hi xAsylum, and welcome to AfraidToAsk. It seems like your friends aren't very good friends. But there are other people, I'm sure, who respect you for what you are, not for how they think you ought to be.Try to rise abbove the stupid stuff that doesn't matter, and hold fast to what does matter. There's a much bigger world outside than in school, and its vision is wider, and it needs all kinds of people, including you.
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Thanks for the support. The two of you have helped me more then any of my friends have...
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thats all you need is her. you and her hold a bond that break through obsticles and accomplish anything. and about cutting, dont do it anymore. as much as it seems like no one cares they do. if your death comes in hand they will have to embrace your spirit and have the guilty conscience. but ur loved by ur grl. be happy in thatt manner cuz i say thats enough.