Sigh...

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No i've not started councelling yet. All I had was a "screening session" to determine if I'm suitable or not, and they said yes, I am.

So I have my first session next Tuesday.

OK, I didn't realize that. See how it goes...I wish you good progress.

I agree.. go out and look for new friends!

Actually they invite me over, and I've been asked to go on holiday with them (minus my ex) this xmas season.

I was round there yesterday actually, and I didn't feel so attracted to her (she was being an utter bitch - moreso than usual) - so hopefully this trend will continue. I think as I haven't seen her in a good light and all I've seen is bad stuff recently, it's starting to make me understand how crappy she is.

Actually they invite me over, and I've been asked to go on holiday with themDon't they think that that makes their daugter (your ex) rather uncomfortable?

She has invited me over a couple of times also (although she denies it afterwards)

I think they may be a little messed up, unfortunately, as I say, they're the only people I have left...

as a wise man once said: "Unfortunately it's the best that's available. You can't get two weeks in the Carribean then Grimsby is better than nothing."

OK, well...just found out that she's had a new boyfriend for 3 weeks. she slept with him after being together for 2 hours, and is having unprotected sex regularly now.Worst part is, I feel awful for so many reasons. This is the part I've feared the most.

**wow sounds like she is making some sensible choices there...............not! **

I spose one thing that's come of this is I no longer hate girls.I despise them. And I'm petrified of them too...downward spiral? yep.

Not to get all religious or anything, but do you have a religion? If you do I say go find a girl who shares your religion..on the other hand if you dont then still try to find a girl thats either somewhat religious or has good morals.Im not saying that every other girl in the world is bad/cold-hearted..im just saying the likely hood of a girl who has strong morals and a good head on her shoulders isn't going to fuck you over(excuse my language)...and if you dont like the idea of that then go for a girl you think will treat you right.If your trying to pick up chicks at parties/bars and you see them flirting with everyone,chances are they arent going to quit afterwords and are going to do it while you're dating=they will cause jealousy problems. Go for the girls who seem more ..well i dont know how to put it...NON slutty.

I wish you good luck

**its been posted before and i will post it again, not all girls are the same......... **

lol, it's not like I've been trying to pick up nasty girls. it just happens...EVERY time, without fail. I seem to magnetise them to me, and even then it's only a very very weak magnetism as it'll only happen every 2 years or so.It's just every girl I know or have ever met has been malicious in some way or another. They seem perfectly nice to begin with, but after about a week it will go very very sour...it's gotta be me...

**actually after hearing about the girl you posted about, i don't think it is you hon, i think its them. **

OK, I'm 2 weeks away from my next councelling session and i'm feeling suicidal - what can I do?

Call your counselor right now! Consider it a medical emergency.

I don't have a number. All I have is times when I go and see her, and i'm not due till the 4th of october.

I just need something to combat the feeling of total worthlessness I have at the moment. After all the stuff I heard last night and the amount of sense it made, I really don't feel like there's any point in me being around any more, so why should I be?

I don't have a number. WHAT???? How do you make appointments, or change them, or communicate when you're not there in person?Look, if you're really feeling suicidal (as opposed to very depressed), you are facing a medical emergency. You need to call someone, whether it's your regular doctor's office, a suicide hotline, a hospital emergency room, or whatever. This forum is not a suicide hotline. All I can tell you is not to do anything crazy, because when you're suicidal, your perception is really messed up.Yes, I'm serious. You need to get help right away. You do rate it.

I've calmed down a bit now, but I'm still pretty shaky.I don't make appointments. I have them made for me because the UK health service is so rubbish that I have to take whatever they can give me. I don't have any contact outside of the appointments.

With all the stuff that's been happening to me recently, this was just thrown into the mix...

apparently my ex found out that I knew she had someone else, and now she's angry that her sister told me, and that she didn't want me to know!

Whats up with that? Why does it matter to her if I know or not?

That is pretty weird. It's something not worth spending much time worrying about, though.