Life, and control

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I have lost control of the mental side of my life. I cannot do anything anymore, I have the desire but I do not. I have the feelings to not care anymore and be depressed, but I am also very positive and I always caring. I do not what is going on b/c the depressive side of me is winning, and it is affecting all aspects, work, school, and friends. What is going on, I cannot control anything, I have so many things left to do.

Bullshit, of course you have control, you just don't want to do it.Just do whatever you wanna do and stop making up excuses.

oh how does that help you dumb shit. I am only posting b/c I have lost control. I had everything going okay and then it all fell apart.

You do have control, you're just telling yourself you don't have control because you want to find a reason why you're not doing whatever you want to do.I don't mean this in an insulting way btw

sorry for going off.But what would.....I mean......I do not understand, but I do...I just do not know why I would be.

Just find something you want to do but say you can't .... and just straight up do it. Don't think about it, or you won't do it, trust me. Just do it right away.Once you do that you'll realize how easy it was and the rest will follow

okay what about everything else. I mean this is the most stress i have ever been under. So many things need to be done in so little time and I cannot do it all...I mean I have never known anyone else that would have all this to take on.

Well what are some things you wanna do but can't ?

After you do one thing ... you'll say "hey that wasn't so bad" ... then you'll do the next thing. etc.

If not.. then just keep pushing yourself to do it. This feeling that you're not in control will go away eventually

I mean I guess what really threw a wrench into my whole deal is my car. I had done some mods to it on Sunday and it was supposed to only take 3-5 hours, but it is now the 4th day. I am running out of time to work on it b/c when my rents come back from vacation, I have no vehicle and I do not know enough people that can give me a ride.

Aww Jon, (I'm sorry I didn't answer your IM on MSN... I wasn't online at the time) I'm so sorry to hear this. What's happening right now thats making you feel like this?

A lot of things. Everything has built up and so many things are not going the way they should be.

**Hon everyone has times like these when things seem to spiral out of control and everything is shit. That doesn't mean that its gonna last, and it doesn't mean that you can't stop it. Make a list of everything you need to do, priorities and get the most important things done first, even if they are the worst, tick them off (its a good feeling to see how much you have accomplished) work from one thing to another...............getting stressed about it will make things worse, and you won't finish half of what you need to do anyway. sorry if that all sounded patronising.........i have soo much on at the mo i feel the same, but am working through my list gradually.............that will teach me for taking too much on eh!!! Good luck hon *hugs* **

I dunno. The list will not work. I do not have the time for that.

ah, well for me, making a list is the most important thing, and will organise your time better, but you will do as you want hon hugs