Failed @ suicide? happy or sad bout it?

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I was never treated horribly, like beaten or abused, I just got the general feeling that I was a burden and to some extent I was.

Yes I've tried to kill myself and have failed horribly... and I'm sad that it failed...

My life insurance policy reads that there is no pay out for suicide for the first two years after it started.People that do that go take out a pollicy to take care o people that are left behind, or maybe to inflit more guilt on the ones they blame for their prolems that le to this. It used to cost insurace companys alot of money and since they are there for them not for you, they put a stop to it with that clause. most people wouldnt take it out then decide to wait 2 years to do it.its another prime example of cover your own ass

What if you take out the policy, then start taking something over the next 2 years that slowly kills you, and you die after the 2 years are up. Does that count, since you originally started before the 2 year clause was up?

well I could all my agent and as, but they hate e enough and charge me accordingly for my hobbies and the smoking. I dont think i want to incur any more reason to raise my rates or have my policy cacelled

man people should watch sawalot of people realise they dont want to die right before they dieas for thread.. ive thought about it, but never tried. but till today i still think of all the reasons why i would and it always over rule why not too.. i guess its just cuz im a pussy

Nope!You wouldn't be covered especially if the did an autopsy

i think about it all the time. i hate my life and i don't want to continue. but i have responsible for my family. they spent too much to raise me up till right now so i can't just waste their money by end my life. but deep inside myself i know, even if i commit suicide it's all just for attention. i want to see weither people around me actually care about me or not. i think thats sick. so i know i'll never do it.

i've attempted. only lived because my friend forced me to the hospital.i feel like that part of my memory had been buried. so deep. and for some time, though i thought about it at least a few times a day, i felt like i had moved on...but things havent changed. and i am no different. many days i wish i had died in the hospital. in my bed. on that bathroom floor that night when she was begging me to let her help. i know how selfish it seems to come off as..but now. i am bitter. and angry. and i cant function properly. no one really knows and i cant deal with this but i dont know how to. im sick of my obsession with death. none of this will go away.

It sounds like you are in a bad way, fuges. Welcome to A2A. We're not trained at anything but we can be friends, and sometimes having some friends to talk things over with can make a big difference.

for the people who reply to these posts saying that theyve attempted suicide and failed and are glad. im not trying to be offensive but i dont understand...what are you guys doing still browsing in forums like this?

What does that have to do with anuything????

I tryed once last year before christmas eve,when I was 15. I was really pissed off with my life and whole bunch of issues,one of which was about my weight, because I used to be a pretty skinny kid but now im pretty happy with my weight... thats the one of the reasons i feel like saying right now, but a whole bunch of shit was really fucked up back then, because when you are about to do it a flury of positive reasons for doing it were just flowing through all of them combining to attempt killing my self. Anyways what I tryed to do was hang my self ,to do so I unlaced my laces from my sk8 shoes, which were pretty thick, I tied it pretty securely to the fan above my bed and tightened it fairly tightly round my neck, after i jumped off my bed the lace quickly snaped... at first immediatly after i was sad and pissed off i didnt succeed in killing myself because another one of the reasons why i tryed it was because I was alyways screwing EVERYTHING up... and i even had screwed that up but afterwards i guess im happy I didnt succeed. And im glad no one ever knew i attempted it.

ive tried before, obviouly not successful. Although then i wasn't afraid of the way i'd die. Now i am, after knowing how my best friend killed himself. All but two ways freak me out when i think of how horrible it would it would be to die that way.

i too have attempted numerous times, and i do not know if i am happy or sad about it. some days, i love being alive, and other days, well i just don't.

some days, i love being alive, and other days, well i just don't. welcome to real life...........

i guess i never really though of it as atempting suicide but when i was 8 till i was 10ish when was really sad and i would put a belt around my neck and tighten it really hard, id usually loosen it before i lost consciousness but sometimes i didnt and id wake up and it was lose. im not sad or happy i did it.

I was 15 when i thought about ending my life. My dad died of Liver cancer and i was left with my mum and brother. I was emotionally shot and really thought about doing something, but the more i thought about it the more selfish i thought i was. How could i do a coward thing and leave this world (my mum and brother) when they had just lost a husband and father. Some people don't have any consideration for the hurt and heartache they leave behind.Some days can be bad (granted) but it's just so important to make the good days GREAT. I have done and seen so much in the last 17 years (i'm 32), that i know i made the right choice to live.I rarely talk about it with anyone, and my mum and brother have no idea what i went thru (we grieved in our own ways).Everyone has a reason to live. U just have to find it, and when u do u will bear the fruit of rewards. TRUST ME!!

I've never tried at suicide but I've thought about it twice and I'm glad I didn't go along with it. One had to do with some racism issues and the other is something a little too personal but yeah. Suicide-bad.