Hey all,
I'm 21 and I haven't been diagnosed with ADD or anything yet its coming to the realisation that in fact I might actually have it. Its not like its something that happened overnight or anything but as far back as I can remember I have always had problems staying focused and always figiting etc. Seriously I cant hold still for even 2 mins. I remember early on in high school doing homework in the mornings I would internally get all up tight start to get figity and just wander off. And if I am still its because i'm playing with some thing in my hands or doing something. Even back in my first year of school I use to get sent to the back of the class alot duing reading time cause I would end up chatting to people but being that young I dont really remember much else about that time. I never really told anyone about how hard it was to keep focused etc this is the first time i'm actually saying something. I have an IQ of around 140 which I guess helped me just get through school without anyone noticing anything. My school assessments were basically all just passing execpt IT with I got an A for because I enjoyed it.
My latest job involved me doing a web project and some of it by home, I find that I have a constant battle to stay focused and it kind of stresses me out. I get annoyed with myself for wandering off and its really worring. Like I would be sitting there and think about something and the next thing I know i'm google searching for something or end up doing something else which wastes alot of time. I have found that if I have an energy drink like redbull in the morning it keeps me more awake and I seem to stay focused alot longer. I try really hard to keep my mind on the task at hand but its really really hard without wandering off, sometimes I will give myself a good slap and get back to work but most of the time it would take me a while before I get back into the task at hand. And sometimes its totally the opposite. I can play a computer game almost a whole day with hardly doing anything else, even eating, its like a hybernation mode where I can play play play till I get really tired.
My mind is constantly in motion even when going to sleep I have to have the TV on normally so I can focus on the sound and stop me from just thinking thinking thinking.
I never went to University but I would have liked to I think what held me back is that I dont think I could have handled all the focusing and study on my own.
I know a few other signs too like bedwetting that can be linked to ADD. I had problems with bedwetting till the age of about 10.
I guess I should seek help but an a bit scared of it all.
Well if you got this far thanks for taking the time to read a little bit about me. Any advice or suggestions are welcome.
Cheers.