Cure?

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Ok the past few months I have been going downhill allot, my life has been getting pretty much unbearable to the point I want to end it. I barely go outside if at all most days and barely eat. I am exhausted contently and can barely get out of bed. I am too depressed to go to sleep in the first place and stay up late and it makes it worse. Anyway I decided as a final resort to look around on the Internet for something that could be helpful as I didn't want my mom to know I was depressed so a psychiatrist was out of the question.I found a really good page and I think its going to help me get over this. I have learned allot from it. One of the most interesting points is that chemical imballences (Most of the time like 70%) dont cause depression, depression causes the chemical imballences. Anyway it was pretty interesting and now that I understand it more it is going to be a lot easier to break the cycle of depression.I recommend anyone who is depressed and WANTS to try and help themself check out http://www.clinical-depression.co.uk/Depression_Information/signs.htm This will take you about an hour to read, in my opinion it is well worth every second. Still not happy but I dont feel life is so unbareable. I think after a week or two I can pull my life back together and start going out again.If your'e depressed I HIGHLY reccomend reading it.

I am not sure what all you are going through but if you EVER need to talk please feel free to send me a PM or to send me a message on the myspace. I actually have been thinking about you lately, noticing you haven't been around much.I am always here for friends, so please even if you just need someone to listen or to vent too.. I'm here.

**thanks honey for the link.

I am really not myself at all, havn't been this low for a while.

I hate it when im a wreck like this, its just NOT ME *growl*

I'll be better soon...........hopefully LOL
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That's a good link honey. If it is helping you to feel better then its got to be good Like Eddie, I've noticed that you haven't been around as much.. missed seeing you here!

Lets see, I got a 73 on the Goldberg depression scale thingy, and as I read this all I did was get really pissed and want to choke the shit out of whoever wrote it. That, however, is merely a manifestation of my frustration and aggravation with generally upbeat posi-philes. While I think that most, if not all, of what the article stated is correct for whatever reason all it did, for me, was illicit an over-reaction of anger.An overall positive attitude and forward thinking had always bounced me back from a stressful traumatic event. But, it is my experience, that from traumatic event, to traumatic event, to traumatic event, positive forward thinking works less, and less, and less, and finally quits working, for the most part. This is where I seem to be. Goal oriented forward thinking positive actions still have their place and I believe will make a difference in maybe five years. Most of the time the belief that things will be better in five years is the only thing that keeps me going. However, there must be some kind of acknowledgement of reality that nothing is going to make things better now or tomorrow or next week or anytime within the easily discernible future.After life knocks you down so many times getting back up just becomes an effort in vanity and pride. The fight is still worthwhile but the reasoning becomes rather hollow, at lest it seems so to me. The view my world experiences have produced, tell me that most of my problems are a result of modern western civilization (a concurrence with the findings of the article) and my inability to easy function with-in it. As I don't think society is going to change, within my productive lifetime, the reason for my belief, that the fight becomes hollow, is manifest. I am by no means advocating giving up, something I just don't believe in, I'm just venting the irrational anger that the link brought forth in me. Honestly I have no idea why the article made me angry. I think it is very valid and its methodology worked for me many times over. For first, second, third time depressions I would say its great. For seventh, eighth, ninth time depressions or chronic depression I think it lacks a lot.As, I think, I stated before I have no reason for writing this other than my own self indulgent rant. Thanks for allowing me to vent.

I think what we all need is a good ole game of A2A co-ed naked Twister. :grin:

That is a good link. Thanks for sharing. I wish I had some advice for all you sad people, but I am in the same boat. :frowning:

Like everyone says hun we are here for you. I am only half an hour away from you so you know where I am ok and I mean that.I make good coffee and have a good shoulder. Just make sure the window is open this time!!

Thanks for your replies I didnt think enyone cared I wasnt posting, anyway I found it nice to know some of the background info about depression and find its easier to understand why I feel shit now.I just cant seem to get enough sleep, gah it sucks because I am too tired to do anything. I need to get a job but I cant motivate myself. I just wanna sleep.

If there's anything you want to discuss in private, you can feel free to PM me anytime to discuss it, et cetera. I largely have the same problems, and more, and am finally getting something done about it.

We do care hun x